So Many Things I Want To Say

Chapter 16

A month later

Time is going so slow. His health status has not changed. I went home once to get clothing, but I showered and slept here.

"I am going to go get coffee." I stand up Trish takes my spot I walk out into the hall toward the kitchen. Steph comes in behind me.

"Tessa, can you talk to me?" She comes close to me; her hand touches my shoulder I flinch back.

"Can you go away Steph?" The sight of her, the pain it gives me. I just want her gone.

"Let me explain, Molly, threatened me." She leans on the counter.

"What do you mean?" I take my coffee in both hands leaning on the counter next to her. "I'm listening." She makes herself a cup of coffee. I watch her for w while before she decides to speak.

"Molly came to me, she said she needed me to do something for her... and of course I oblige..."

"What did you do Steph?" She sits on the floor of the kitchen.

"Molly, she wanted me to switch Hardin's surgery schedule, even what his surgery was going to be..." The pain inside me became more real.

"What did she offer you? There had to be something." I am angry now my cup of coffee is already on the ground.

"Money... she offered me money." Her eyes water, tear fall slowly down her cheek. My eyes fill with rage, I can feel my face burn with fire. I want to scream.

"You risked Hardin's life for money!?" There it was, the fire, the rage. The burn-in my heart felt so real. How could she do such a horrible thing to her friend? I have never felt this much rage in my life. Her tear-filled face did not make me feel sad for her. She wanted me to feel for her like she was the victim.

"His surgery was for his heart... his heart is failing him; they were going to do the brain surgery but I stopped them. Molly didn't know I had them just knock him out, I knew it would have killed him if they did. I had Molly come in to see him, so I could show her proof, I had to put a bandage on his head so she wasn't suspicious." I am in shock I can't even think of anything to say.

"I..." I can't form words, she literally has ruined his life.

 "That's when he woke up his heart started to fail him and put him into a seizure. I am not sure why he seizure it might have been from the stuff we gave him."

"Steph, stop talking." She stands up.

"Look, Tessa, I tried to stop her, I stopped the surgery."

"That doesn't change the fact that you did it, for money." I turn away from her, "I am going to go find Trish."

"Tessa, don't go to Trish. He should wake up on his own soon." Steph caught up to me.

"Steph, what did I just say." She stops in her tracks. "Get his proper surgery scheduled that's what you can do! Save him! Make up for what you did," I walk away. I turn around to make sure she is gone, I hear another set of footsteps following behind.

"Tessa." I know that voice, I turn back around to see Zed. His hair is longer since the last time I saw him it's just below his chin. "How is Hardin?" He embraces me. His touch... I don't know how to feel, It's warm without realizing I reach my arms around him. His touch I felt like I needed to cry, he helped me relax. The tears came rolling down, he holds me close. His heartbeat sent chills down my spine. 

"Why are you here? You haven't been around for years." He pulls away. I wipe my tears off my face.

"Look, Tess, I know I messed up with you and with Hardin but please let me at least be here for Hardin and you, you know you need me." He has a new piercing on his face a shiny new ring in his lip. I never liked piercings, I bet Mel put him up to it. My anger returns, "How is he? Is there any update?" How did he even know Hardin was here?