So Many Things I Want To Say

Chapter 18

A month later:

I hear chocking from the bathroom. I was left with Hardin for a few days his mom had to go to a business meeting in Manhattan. I rush out of the shower in my towel. Hardin is chocking on his feeding tube. I go to pull it out but a doctor yells at me to stop.

"No! You can't touch that!" Are you fucking kidding me? He goes over to Hardin and pushes me out of the way.

Two days ago:

Steph comes into Hardin's room, 

"Tess, can you come outside with me? I want to talk." She has a box of cigarettes in her hand smacking it with her other hand. 

"Can we talk after you had a smoke?" I look away from her hoping she will walk away. 

"Come on, I won't light one until you leave." I highly doubt that. I stand walking behind her. As we walk out of the hospital Molly walks up.

"Molly, go find someone else to fuck with. You already fucked up Hardin's life!" Steph lit a cigarette. The sight makes me sick, I knew she was lying, why am I even out here? "Steph why did you bring me out here?" The smoke flies in front of my face. "You couldn't have waited?" 

"I wanted you and Molly to talk, and for me as well to say we are both sorry." I roll my eyes at her fake smile; the smoke leaves her mouth with her body leaning on the brick wall and her one lifted behind her. This is a sight of Steph I thought I would never see. Her body language is different. 

"I want to apologize," Molly butts in pulling a cigarette out herself. Putting the death stick between her loose lips. The lies just keep coming out. The lighter burns her skin as she tried to light her cigarette, the wind picks up I hear the leaves swaying along with the wind. "Fuck!" I laugh under my breath. 

"Fuck you, Molly, you are both full of shit." We stand in silence, I knew this wasn't going to go anywhere, this was a waste of my time, I storm back into the Hospital. "Steph the one thing you can do for me is keep her away from me," She nods. Molly tries to follow me, but Steph grabs her. Molly quickly turns and punches Steph. My mouth opens wide trying not to laugh the sight of her falling to the ground was funny but also horrible. I run to the elevators hoping I can outrun Molly. The doors close before she makes it. 

I begin to rub Hardin's arm with a hand sponge. I have been giving him hand baths and I shave his beautiful face. Facial hair looks funny on him. His skin is so warm, I lay my hand on his face. The feeding tube is still in the way, it makes this so much harder.

"Baby, hold on I still need you." I need him... I want him. I have the next few days alone with him. I held his hand in mine.

"You think you can run from me?" Steph yelling at Molly from behind her as she enters the room.

"Molly, leave her alone!" Steph's eye is dark purple from the punch she encountered. She tries to cover it with her thick curls.

"Steph, it's fine just go I got this," I say getting to my feet. I walk in front of the pink-haired girl she stands slightly taller than I. "Molly if you ever had a good bone in your body you will respect my wishes and leave now." I don't let her speak. "I know you are jealous."

"I'm not..." Her face flushes with anger.

"Yes, you are Molly. You had a short time with Hardin, and you did care. You probably had a problem in your life that made you this way and I'm sorry about that." I take her hand trying to calm her heated anger towards me. She backs off a little.

"I..."

"Don't say anything Molly please just go." I let go of her hand and walk back to Hardin. She turns around and walks away.