So Many Things I Want To Say

Chapter 19

Hardin:

Everything is so quiet; my father left me, I am sitting here waiting and waiting. I truly don't know what to do. It has been a while since I was really alone... I want to be home, I want to be with Tessa. The only thing that matters is that she and I are together.

I keep thinking about what her touch will feel like, what her lips feel like on mine. I am ready to be with her. I'm ready to go back home to her. My knees hit the ground, I couldn't feel the ground. I want to feel, I want to see, be in her arms, I have never wanted something so bad.

My hands are over my face I began to feel warm... The warmth of someone's touch. I lifted my head up to the white room disappearing from my view. The warmth is lifting me to my feet. I hear a voice.

"It's time to go home my child." No one was there when I turned around I turned back to where I was standing to see a door. The door was a rosewood color with a gold frame surrounding it. The door wasn't attached to anything I walked around it; I reach the front of the door I lift my hand to open the door. My hand is shaking as I reach for it. Everything inside of me is telling me to open it... But my ego is telling me that it is not worth going back... Will she be there when I wake up? Will she be happy with me? The door opens as my hand turns on the handle. 

What I see is absolutely beautiful, the bright blue sky, the clouds are highlighted with gold light. The sunbeams on my body the warmth fills my heart. I step out and the clouds are solid they hold me up. I get my other foot out and nothing it all turns into gold light and I open my eyes.

My head is moving rapidly looking for the one person I want to see.

I can't breathe, I am choking; I feel like I'm drowning. My body is moving uncontrollably I see this lady start to pull at the tube that is in my throat. Doctors flood in; I can't keep my eyes open as my air won't escape my body. Holding my body still so they can remove the tube I hear yelling. After they remove it, I breathe on my own.

I begin to move my head and scan the room then I spot her. Her eyes are on me. Her eyes are filled with tears she is as beautiful as the last time I saw her. Her hair is up in a tight ponytail like she does when she is stressed. She walks over to my side.

"Tessa." My voice is very horsed.

"Hardin." Her little whimper makes me smile.

"I'll give you guys a minute." The doctor says as she walks out the door, following after the other doctors.

"What is wrong beautiful?" I look into her eyes as they are already filled with tears. I can feel the pain she feels, just seeing her at this moment means everything to me and her and I know it. My heart monitor is running fast. Just my eyes on her make my heart go crazy.

"I have lost you way too many times these past few months, I can't lose you again." I hold her close. I close my eyes. Holding the one thing that I have been waiting for.

"Hardin? Baby?" Molly walks in through the door; my mother follows in behind. Tessa pulls away and stands to her feet.

"Leave Molly, you have no business here," Tessa says. What is she doing?

"I have every right!" Molly gets into Tessa's face.

"You almost killed him, and you think you can just waltz back in this room and be excepted!?" Tessa moves right on in with no hesitation.

"You're getting awfully close little one." Molly puts her hands on her hips.

"I may not be as tall as you, but I can beat you to a pulp if you don't leave." She gets that anger from me. I chuckle at my thoughts.