So Many Things I Want To Say

Chapter 21

I know Zed is lying to me, Hardin knew how much I cared for Zed... He would never do that... Even if he loved me. Right? I come out of the bathroom to see Hardin sitting on the side of the bed leaning over with his hand on his forehead. Its been a week and its the day he starts his physical thereby.

"Hardin, what are you thinking about?" He looks up at me. He looked broken, I have never seen him so broken before. The pain he must be feeling, the doctor said with the medication he is on may increase the chance of depression... I worry that he will retaliate, this is a dark time. 

"Oh, nothing." I sit next to him, I know he is lying but I don't want to force him, he will tell me when he is ready. He has been dreading this day all week, I know he will make it through.

"Are you ready for physical therapy?" I put my hand on him, but he pulls away. His face scrunched up in anger. His fist becomes tight.

"No." He tries to stand on his own. I want to help, I reach my arm out to grab onto him but...

"Stop it, Tess!" He shoved me slightly, but he falls to the floor.

"Are you serious Hardin!? Are you that fucking stubborn!?"I lean over to help but he shifts his body away, "Really?" I walk my way to the hallway to call Kim. "Kim I am going to need some help."I wait for her answer but I see her walking my way with Vance. I walk back into the room and Hardin is reaching the bed trying to pull himself up.

"I can't believe you left me." He looks at me with sad eyes. His arms reach for the bed. 

"I can't believe you are so stubborn that you won't ask for help, just let me help you!" Kim and Vance came to help with Hardin. I am now getting tired of Hardin, he won't ask for help, he won't even let me touch him.

"It's time for us to go anyway so let's put him in the wheelchair." Vance brings over the chair, Hardin takes one look and opens his mouth.

"Fuck that!" Hardin refused. I knew this was coming. I shoot him a glare, but it does not faze him.

"Is he always this pushy?" Kim says nudging me with her elbow.

"Honestly, this is not his worst day." I laugh as he looks at me. "Once in a while Hardin you're going to have to ask for help." I walk out of the room.

"Where are you going?" Hardin asks as I leave.

"I need a minute." He really is starting to grind my gears. The entitlement that he is giving off is not what I wanted when he woke up.

"You are supposed to come with me." The sadness in his voice makes me hurt just a little bit, one moment he is angry and does not want me around the next he does. Do the meds make him bipolar too?

"Not until you let me help you." He doesn't say a word. I walk away. I kind of wanted him to ask for my help but I'm not going to give him the satisfaction if he is going to be an ass.

"Tessa, wait up," Kim calls from behind. I turn around. "I got Steph kicked out of medical." What?

"What about Molly?" My body becomes stiff.

"No one has seen her, but they are on the lookout for her, so you, me drunks tonight?"

"I don't know, I don't really want to go to a club or anything."

"My place, we will have some wine." She gives me a smile. "We will chat, learn more about one another." She hugs me, "forgot about Hardin for a while, now that he is fully aware now, take a few days for yourself." A few days?

"I can't be away from him for days."

"Yes, you can. Go hang at home do something you like to do." She grins and turns away. A few days... To myself... Not sure if I can. One day will do.