So Many Things I Want To Say

Chapter 23

(Depression Warning, there is a scene that involves an anxiety attack.) 

Tessa:

I helped Hardin's mom get Hardin into the car. I close his door his mom comes over and pulls me aside before we get into the car.

"Sorry I interrupted something." My face becomes hot. She puts her hand on my shoulder and giggles. She gets into the driver's seat. I stand in the cool fresh air looking up into the sky, his hands on me so gentle, I can't wait till we are home. I sit in the back seat leaning my head on the car window, watching the trees pass my eyes close. 

Oh, we all know I was looking, I wanted to take it into my hands; play with his cock rub my thumb along the tip to tease him just a little. I wanted to feel him inside me... our first time... I know I want him to be my first... I know I am not his but why not be his last.

I held back at that moment... His lips should have been on mine, his tongue...

I feel a warm hand touch my face as the door opens, my eyes take a while to adjust to seeing who I am looking at. Hardin rubs his thumb along my cheek which makes me smile.

Hardin:

"Hey." Everything that we have been through has led us here. She sits up getting herself out of the car, as she stands, she grabs the wheelchair handles to push me. The sound the birds and trees' make this moment just right, we make it to my front door my mother helps her bring me into the house, I hear a set of footsteps behind me.

"Tessa! Hardin!" Zed comes running up panting like he was running the whole time. "Why didn't you tell me Hardin was released?" He asks Tessa, she looks away trying to ignore the question.

"Does she need to tell you anything?" I glare at him, "Tessa, go inside I will be right in." She nods she pushes me onto the porch again to close the door. Zed sits in the chair that is on our porch. "You didn't say anything to her, did you?" He turns his head away from me I know he did, "Well it doesn't matter because it seems like she doesn't care." I give him a smirk.

"You guys fucked, didn't you?" My smile becomes huge. I want to lie to him and say yes but I dodged the question. His leg begins to shake.

"It is none of your business, and you kissed her! Why did you do that?" That is all I want to know, everything inside me wants to stand and punch this man in the face, "If you lay another hand on her I will..." He cuts me off

"I will fight for her, and you know I will." He stands to his feet, "and you tell her that because I am not giving up until she is in my arms and mine." He steps off the porch and walks off, Tessa opens the door.

"How much did you hear?" I wait for her answer but nothing is said she pulls me into the house, I look around and see my mother got a stairlift installed on the steps for me while I am in this wheelchair, I already can feel the depression take over, I did research and I may never have the full range of motion in my legs again... Tessa touches my shoulder her warmth maybe the only thing that will keep me going.

Tessa:

"I am going to go home Hardin," I kiss his forehead before I can make it out of the door all the way Hardin's mother speaks as I leave.

"Dinner?" I give her a smile with a nod and walk out, the door closes behind me I look at my house across the street, Zed was waiting for me, I regret every step I take twards my house. I heard everything... Zed was telling the truth, He told Zed to leave. How could I be so stupid not to believe it? The wind began to pick up, the skies were dark, the rain started to fall I stand in the road reach my hands out to the side and lean my head back to feel the rain.