Too Hard To Find (Book Two)

My Stupid Feelings

Jughead's POV

"Where's Xavier?" Veronica asked one of her friends.

"In your room with the kids." She said. All I could do is watch Veronica and smile. She still gets me. It's been two years and She still gets me. Then we started going to her room and her boyfriend was sitting on the bed. He stood up when he saw us.

"Baby, your back. Is this one of your friends?" He asked looking at me. He seemed to be glaring at me or just watching me very closely. For some reason when he said baby I felt hurt and rejected. Why? He then left.

"I'm not sure he likes me." I said and she laughed. I've missed her laugh. She walked to Camila and Camdyn, right? And walked back over to me.

"Jughead, this is your son. Camdyn Tyler Jones." She said and gave him to me.

"You kept my last name for him?" I asked. We kept talking and I kept asking her questions about everything. What I really wanted to know was what they call him.

"Do they... do they call him anything?" I asked. I feel horrible asking. I'm not apart if their life. They don't know.

"No, they really just call him Xavier. I've never heard anything other than that." I kind of felt relief when she said that. Then one of her friends came. The her boyfriend.

"I better go." I said.

"Oh, okay." She said quietly. Now I feel bad. Hrler boyfriend came over and took Camdyn out of my arms.

"Yeah, I will. Bye, Veronica." I said and left. As I left I passed a couple of her friends. I didn't may attention to them I just left. I then started my way to my trailer. The whole why, all I could think about was her.

I miss her. I miss her smile, too. I miss her little giggles, looking into her eyes, telling her how beautiful she is, and how much I love her. I miss holding her hand and kissing her. I wanna hold her in my arms and remake all my promises to her. All the promises I never kept. She is everything I ever wanted and I lost it due to nothing. I just want her to be mine again, but that's never gonna happen. I know it won't.

I'm now laying in bed, starring at the ceiling, in the dark, doing nothing. Then there was a knock at door. I sighed and got up.

"What do you want, Toni?" I asked her.

"To talk." She said and let herself in. I sighed again.

"Come in." I muttered. She looked back at me.

"I saw you today." She said.

"What?" I asked.

"I was here about an hour ago and you were here." She said. I'm really fucking confused right now.

"What? Toni, you're making no sense." I said.

"Today at lunch. You kept on looking at Veronica." She said.

"What? I was not!" I said. I was.

"Yes, you were. And where were you after we all left Pop's?" She asked. I sighed.

"I was with Veronica." I told her.

"Why?" She asked.

"Because I was meeting my son." I said. She went quiet.

"Son? Her son is your son? Not Xavier's?" She asked. I nodded.

"Yeah, he's two years old, okay? She found she was pregnant a week after she left Riverdale." I told her.

"Oh, I'm sorry." She muttered and started to leave.

"Why did you come here?" I asked. She looked back at me. "To tell me to get over Veronica? To tell me that She's with someone else like I don't already know? To remind me that she left me!?" I asked.

"Yes! Jughead, I don't want you doing anything to make her hate you. I don't want you ruining a friendship that's being built between you two because you still got feelings for her. I don't need you driving her away again!" She said. I rolled my eyes.

"So it's my fault?! Great! I don't need you telling me how to live my life." I said. She sighed.

"Fine. But if she leaves again, and it's your fault, don't cry to me about how much you miss her. AGAIN!" She said and left. I rolled my eyes. I wouldn't do anything to hurt Veronica no matter how much I love her, and no matter how much I hate the fact that's shes with somebody else. I wouldn't be able to do it. I went back and layed in bed. Yes, I would like Veronica back, but I wouldn't do anything to her relationship. Plus, she seems happy and as long as she's happy I'm happy. Even if she's not happy with me.