Too Hard To Find (Book Two)

Confused

10 Days Until The Wedding
Jughead's POV

"It was amazing, wasn't it? What never happened." She said. I looked at her and smirked. Then she left. What the hell does that mean? I'm already confused on where we stand after last night, but when she said that, that confused me even more. I know last night ment nothing. She was just hurt. But she also came back in and kissed me again. I hope this doesn't changed a thing between us. It probably will. Since it's Monday I have to go to work. When i got there I saw Betty, Cheryl, Toni and Veronica talking. She got up to leave and I hid myself. I don't think she'll want to see me right now. I don't know why I think this I just do.

The rest of the day I just thought about Veronica. She's already always on my mind, but after what happened last night it's worse. All I can think about is that she kissed me back.

I saw her looking down at her wrist yesterday. Looking at the Queen at it. I looked down at my wrist. King. I wish that would've lasted. I fucked it up. I know I did. I need to listen to Toni. Get over her! I'm even more confused after last night.

Once I left Pop's, I went to where Veronica is staying. Is it bad that I wish she was staying with me? I got there, and one of her friends opened the door.

"Hi. Is Veronica here?" I asked her. I think is was Madelyn. I don't remember. I wasn't really listening at the time.

"Jughead, right?" She asked and I nodded. "Yeah, she's here. I'll go get here." She said and shut the door. I sighed and looked down. Then, the door opened again. It was Veronica. She quietly stepped out and closed the door.

"What are you doing here?" She asked.

"I wanted to talk about last night." I said.

"If you're wanting to know it ment nothing. Absolutely nothing! Okay? Like I said it never happened. Don't bring it up again. Goodbye, Jughead." She said and went back in.

What the hell was that? What changed? She said it was amazing. She agreed with me. I understand if she didn't want to being it up, but her staying it ment nothing, hurt. Absolutely nothing. That hurt. So damn much! Why did she say that? What changed?

Veronica's POV

It's only seven and I'm laying in bed, cuddled upto Xavier. The two kids are with Madelyn and Sophia.

"I love you." He said. This made me smile.

"I love you, too." I said. Then, the door opened and I saw Madelyn.

"Hey, somebody here's for you Veronica." She said. I got up.

"Who is it?" I asked.

"Its Jughead." She said. I nodded.

"Okay," I mumbled and she walked off. I went to open the door again and there he was. I walked out and shut the door. He wanted to talk about last night. "If you're wanting to know it ment nothing. Absolutely nothing! Okay? Like I said it never happened. Don't bring it up again. Goodbye, Jughead." I said and went back in. I immediately felt terrible for saying that because it did mean something. It ment everything. I just feel bad for sleeping with him when I'm with Xavier. I mean, I love Xavier. I think. I'm so confused now. I opened the door again, to say sorry and that it ment everything. I wanted him to know that it was everything. That... that I would love it to happen again. Whether I was with someone or not. Just most likely when I'm not. But he was gone. I sighed. I've fucked up. He probably hates me now. And we were getting so good. Why did I have to go and hook up with him? That's what ruined it all. And me telling him it ment nothing even when it ment everything. I walked back to the room and started to get changed.

"Hey, what are you doing?" Xavier asked.

"Going to bed." I said.

"But it's only seven." He said getting up and walking over to me.

"And I'm tired so I'm going to bed." I said bluntly. "I would also like to be alone for a while so... could you leave?" I asked while getting into bed.

"Hey, are you okay?" He asked, getting next to me trying to pull me into an embrace. I push him away.

"No, I want to be left alone." I said. I saw him roll his eyes.

"Fine." I said. He started mumbled things under his breath as he left, shutting the door. I sighed. I don't care if he's mad at me. I only care if Jughead's mad at me. I dont want him to be mad at me. I feel like n.v I should talk to him. Call him maybe. I think it would be better if I went to him in person. He'd, hopefully, know I'm not lying. I feel so bad now. I cuddled upto the blankets and slowly started falling asleep. I'm tired from thinking to much, I guess.