Too Hard To Find (Book Two)

Pasts

Veronica's POV

"So, why did you want me over here so quick?" Sweet Pea asked and sat next to me on the sofa. He just helped me get Camdyn and Camila down for a nap. I sighed and looked at him.

"Jughead and I got into a fight," I told him.

"What was it about?" He asked.

"It was just something stupid. I brought up us breaking up almost three years ago. All I wanted to know was why he used to come home so late. I honestly don't care why he was. Whether he was cheating on me, working late, struggling with other things, I just wanted to know." I told him. He just nodded and let me rant on. I let out a long sigh when I finished ranting.

"Woah," He said. "That's a lot."

"I know. I'm sorry for dumping this all on you. I know you have a baby at home and everything, but Cheryl and Toni are gonna have a baby of their own soon. I figured you'd be the next best person."

"Wait, Cheryl and Toni are having a baby?" He asked. 

"Yeah, they're already five months along. Toni is carrying the baby." I told him.

"Damn, everybody is having kids now." He said. I smiled and nodded. "Are you gonna be next?" He asked. I sighed and looked down. I did my best to keep the smile on my face. He put a hand on my back. I looked at him. "What is it?"

"I-" I sighed. "When I was pregnant with Camdyn there were some complications during the pregnancy. I almost lost him. That's why I save as many moments I can for my kids. I had already lost one before I just couldn't handle losing another. When he survived I was so thankful. And after I lost the first baby I was told it might not be safe for me to get pregnant. Then, I got pregnant with Camila and she went so smoothly throughout the whole thing. I figured things have changed." My eyes had become watery just thinking about all the mess from the past. I sighed. "I'm just scared that if I do get pregnant again that I might lose it again. Or get close and I can't, I just can't go through all of that again." He pulled me into a hug and I tried my best not to cry. 

That's when the door opened and Jughead walked through. I quickly pulled away from Sweet Pea and stood up. He looked back and forth between the two of us. He looked confused. 

"What's going on here? Why is he here?" Jughead asked. I sighed.

"I asked him to come here after you left." I told him.

"Why would you do that? You haven't talked to him in years." He asked. I stepped closer to him.

"I've started talking to him again. I know he did some horrible things in the past but," He cut me off.

"Horrible things, that's it? He tried to get you let Camila think he was her father. And God knows what else." He said. I looked down.

"Jug, we really need to talk." I told him. He looked at Sweet Pea.

"As long as he leaves," I looked back, too. I nodded and he stood up. 

"Are you gonna be okay?" He asked me knowing what I'm going to talk about.

"I'll be fine, I promise." And he left. I went and sat on the couch. "Please, come sit."

"Why was he here exactly?" He asked.

"I needed someone to talk to. I couldn't talk to you. I left so quickly and I figured calling you would be useless. I know how you can be." I told him. "Now please, sit." He sighed and sat next me.

"What do we need to talk about." 

I told him everything I told Sweet Pea before. Plus some. He was quiet at first. Like he didn't know how to respond. He ended up apologizing for leaving so quick. I also apologized for bringing something up that had no importance whatsoever. It was three years ago. It doesn't matter. 

We're now just laying in bed and cuddling. I never knew how much I needed something until I got it. I have him, I have the kids, I have my friends. I got everything I need. What more could I possibly need?