Too Hard To Find (Book Two)

Old Memories

Veronica's POV

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I woke up in Jughead's arms. He was already awake.

"How long have you been up?" I asked. He looked at me.

"Almost an hour." He said.

"Why didn't you get up?" I asked him.

"I didn't want to leave you alone." He said and pulled me closer. I smiled.

"Promise you'll never leave me." I said.

"I promise, I will never leave you. I promise, I will never hurt you. I'm gonna keep you and the baby safe. No matter what happens. Whether it's good or bad, I'm gonna keep you safe. You are all I ever cared about. I love you, Veronica Lodge. And I always will. I'm never gonna let you go. I promise you that, okay?" He said. I nodded and smiled and even more and kissed him.

"Okay. I love you, too." I said. He smiled.

"What do you want to do today?" He asked. I shrugged.

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I looked around the room and sighed. Somethings wrong. Somethings wrong with everyone around me, and everything around me. But maybe there's just something wrong with me. I looked back at Xavier, who was still sleeping. I sighed and looked away. My phone buzzed and I looked at it.

Toni

T: Can you and your friends hangout today?

V: Yeah, I didn't have anything planned today. Except maybe hanging out with Jughead later?

T: Oh, when were you planning on hanging out with Jughead? And why?

V: I don't know yet. And I don't want things to be awkward between us. I just want everything to be normal.

I put my phone and felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist. I smiled a little.

"Hey, baby." He said.

"Hi." I said quietly.

"Have you planned anything for the day." I shrugged.

"I was just texting Toni and she asked if we could hang our today. I said yeah, because I never had anything planned for us to do anyways." I told him.

"And the kids?" He asked.

"We'll take them with us." I said and started to walk away from him.

"Wait, where you going? Stay with me." He said and gently grabbed my wrist. I smiled again and looked at him.

"I'm staying with you. I'm just getting around for the day." I said, and he shook his head.

"No! I just want to hold you all day." He said. I rolled my eyes.

"You held me all night. You're fine." I said and got around and so did he.

Jughead's POV

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After a while, I was laying in the hospital bed cuddled upto her. She had calmed down and just layed up next to me. She had her head on my chest.

"Jug?" She said.

"Yes, Veronica?" I said quietly.

"What happened?" She asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"What happened with the baby?" She asked. "And what happened to me?" I sighed.

"We don't know exactly what happened. I'm sorry." I said.

"Don't be." Her voice was really soft and quiet. "But what about me? What happend to me?" She asked. I sighed once again.

"You were just... emotionless. You were grieving. Didn't know how to feel, I guess. You were quiet. Never said a thing to any of us. We that is was just part of the process." I told her. She sighed.

"Promise me, you'll stay with me. Promise you'll stay by my side. Forever. Promise." She said. I pulled her closer to me.

"I promise. I will always be there for you. I'm never letting you go. Ever. I promise." I said.

"Thank you." She said softly. She eventually fell asleep. I just continued to hold her close to me, until I fell asleep as well.

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I remembered all the promises I would make to Veronica. All of them. All the ones I didn't keep. The ones I wish I would've kept.

I keep kicking myself for everything I did wrong knowing it's not gonna get Veronica to come back to me. She's never gonna come back to me. I got a text and it was from Veronica.

Veronica

V: Want to meet at Pop's at around seven-thirty, maybe?

J: Seven-thirtys fine. It's perfect.

V: Great! I'll you there

J: See ya!

What the fuck? Is meeting her alone good? I think it it. This could give us a chance to put everything behind us. To clear up some things. And just become... friends. I'm not sure I'll be able to just be friends with her. She's to important to me and I still have feelings for her. I should just listen to Toni already. Push the damn feelings aside! She doesn't like me anymore. Maybe if I repeat it enough I will eventually understand.

She's got a shoulder to lean on, and someone new to take care of and love her. I may have been the one to do that a long time ago, but its not me anymore. And I might never be again.