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HARRY E

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HARRY E. STYLES
October, 2014

✧・゚: *✧・゚:*

Nothing in this world could have made me admit what I was thinking. Nope. I couldn't let myself do it. I would have betrayed myself and everything I had been feeling up until this point if I had done that.

As much as inner me wanted to just get it out of my system so I could forget about it, I could not do it. I knew if I'd do it, it would be out in the open, lingering, living with the possibility of finding its way back to me at the most random times.

Just say you find her funny and get over it.

No.

No.

And no.

There was no way I'd admit to something like that. Because if I did that, then I'd notice other, nice traits and qualities about her and I couldn't go down that road. She was too dangerous for me to be around, especially with my mind playing tricks on me.

And by tricks, yes, I mean the naughty dream I had about her.

No, I couldn't stop thinking about it. No, I didn't know why. Yes, I've had sex with my girlfriend to push it out of my head. No, it didn't work. No, I didn't moan the wrong name. But yes, I did see the witch under me for a split second.

See the issue? If I start noticing more things about her then I'm afraid my feelings may change towards her and I'm not sure I want that. Being mean to her and keeping her at an arm's length is just fine. She is my girl's annoying best friend and I'm sound with that.

I was kind of annoyed today, anyway. I was struggling with finishing my dissertation proposal and the deadline was the end of the week. I was working tonight and every night until Monday and I also had classes. Even though I had a three-hour break tomorrow, I knew I would just come home to pass the time and then either skip that seminar or go back.

That was tomorrow's problem, though. Today's was being on Griffin duty. 

Let me explain.

She was going through a rough patch, according to Nadine. My girlfriend asked me very kindly if I could go and pick her and her cousin up from the hospital because he was getting out today. When I asked why could he not just order himself an Uber, I got scolded for even suggesting the idea and then threatened with not getting head for the rest of the month.

It was only the eighteenth of October. I wouldn't have survived. I had to say yes.

Nadine was meant to come with me but she failed to mention that she had a meeting with one of her lecturers when I was supposed to pick the Walkers up. That left me to do the task on my own.

At this point, I could've passed as a regular at this hospital. I was here last month when Griffin got brought in and now, I was here this month, getting her out again.

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