Secret Romantics

i miss you

Jayden POV

"JAYDEN WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!"

Suddenly I feel Grayson pushing me forcefully whilst talking the pan out of my hand. I finally snapped out of it and realized the food was literally on fire. "JAYDEN WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?!? DID YOU WANTED US TO DIE?!?" he shouts. "I...I'm..." I struggle to say.
"HOW DUMB CAN YOU BE??! YOU FUCKING DUMBASS! ARE YOU RETARTED?!" Grayson pours water all over the pan as I feel water pouring my eyes as well. I didn't mean to cause this but I didn't have the courage to tell him. I don't know what I was thinking. I was too traumatized to say anything to him. "You better have this shit clean up when I come back!" He shuts the front door close as he leaves the house. I watch him go... I feel streams pouring down my face coming uncontrollably. Once they start, it's hard to control it. I sniff and whip my tears away. I fist my hand tight and slam it on the island three times in anger. Why am I so stupid.

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After a couple hours later I finally finish cleaning the mess in the kitchen so I sit on the couch as the pain still aching around my heart. My eyes are still watery and red. Not even sure where Grayson went. I thought we had something, turns out it was my foolish emotions getting the best of me once again. I told myself not to get attached but my emotions got the best of me. And now here we are... I hate having to feel this way. He's just a friend that was kind enough to let me live here and I fucked it up. I'm pretty sure after this he's for sure kicking me out.
I go upstairs and start packing my bags. It would hurt a lot more if he tells me himself that he's kicking me out so i'll spare him the trouble. "Where's Grayson?" I hear Mae say in the back. I kinda forgot she was still here. She's holding some sorts of rocks in a bucket but I'm too depressed to even ask. "Not sure." I try not to sound like I was crying. "Mmm that's weird, let me call him"
I continue packing my bags as I hear the door open. My heart drops. That must be him. I don't wanna see him right now, or maybe ever. I hear him sigh as he plops on the couch with one hand on the back of his head. At this point I'm so nervous to even pack my bags, I'm afraid he might tell me something that will break my heart again. I decided to stay in bed for a while doing absolutely nothing. "Grayson, where were you? I was just about to call you" Mae says from the kitchen. "Don't worry about it..." he says. "Okay...?? I was gonna ask you if count how many times I can jump rope on one foot but I saw you and Ja—uh never mind."  "Saw us what?!" he exclaims. "I says never mind!!!" She rushes back up to her room and shuts the door behind her.
A couple minutes went by and I've been waiting for the right time to face him but I'm too afraid. So many questions, 'What will he say to me?' 'Does he still hate me?' I know he's gonna hate me for everything I do, but I don't wanna avoid him forever. I take couple breathers before go out there to talk to him. It's now or never... here I go.

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