Love & War

Where Do We Go

I wake up next to Bellamy that morning. After making sure everyone is alright and safe we headed to bed. He held me but I couldn't fall asleep. It never came. I sit up, swinging my legs over the edge. I grab my shirt putting it on. Once on I sit there. A hand goes to my back, rubbing it. 

"It's not your fault." He says. I get up facing him. 

"Who's is it then?" I ask. He sighs as I put my pants on, walking out of the room. Most of the ark was alright. The outside destroyed. Now we can't use it to save us from Praimfaya. 

I walk down the hallway when I feel sick. I lean over, vomiting on the floor. I close my eyes, wiping my mouth. A hand goes to my back. I turn to see Bellamy behind me.

"I think the radiation is getting to me. After all I'm not from space. It would get to me first." He puts his hand to my head. "I'm fine." Pushing it away as I walk away, trying to be strong. 

I hear him walking behind me as I walk out of the ark. I see Roan and some Azgeda warriors standing near the gate. I walk over him.

"I guess there doesn't need to be a deal since we'll all be dead soon." Roan says as I stop before him. 

"We had some of our people radio that they need fuel. They still believe we can make nightblood. They want us to bring it to them."

"Why are you telling me this?" He asks.

"If we succeed we can make your people nightbloods, saving us all." He looks away before looking back at me agreeing. 

"What would you have us do?"

"We will need people to help us, protect us from anyone that might want to stop us. You and the warriors stay in the back of the truck, protecting the fuel." He nods moving to his warriors. I turn looking at Bellamy.

"You don't look good." He says. 

"I'm fine." I move away. I feel worse after talking to Roan. The nausea still there. This is the second day that I have been sick. I hope that the radiation is not affecting me but I worry it might.

We get ready to leave. Guards help Bellamy put the fuel in the truck. I come out to see them ready. Fuel loaded. Bellamy stands by the rover, waiting for me. I get into the rover. I look over at him to see. Something is affecting him. I don't know what it is but I want to help. We start to drive when I finally speak.

"Are you okay?" I ask.

"I'm fine." He says not looking at me. It seems like we are both 'fine.'

We drive on when we come to a group of grounders blocking the road. Bellamy looks at me before getting out, telling me to stay here. I ignore him getting out. We walk up to the grounders to find out that one of them is hurt. Attacked by an Azgeda warrior returning home. 

After the fire many warriors deserted. They found out about Praimfaya and wanted to be home with there families. Afraid. I am guessing some have killed along the way. As I kneel down to see what I can do, I can tell Bellamy is anxious to be on our way. 

"Get away from there." I hear him call. I look to see a boy walking along the truck. The boy turns looking at the back of the truck.

"Azgeda!" The boy yells. The men turn on us. We quickly get into the rover. Bellamy turns it on and starts driving out of there. Once we are far enough away he relaxes a little. 

"That was close." I say looking back. 

"Too close." He comments. We drive till we get to a river. We hop out, looking along.

"Ice water." Roan says. I nod agreeing. "Flooded the river." He points west. "There could be a shallow area down that way."

"We should check it out." Bellamy says. He looks at me. "Can you stay here while Roan and I check it out." I nod kissing him before letting him go.

Once he is gone I go to the edge. I dip my hands in the water, washing my face. The sickness I have felt is finally gone. I am about to get up when a sword goes to my throat.

"Get up." I stand up turning to see Roan's warrior. I look behind him at the dead warrior. Another warrior is putting him in a sack, he carries him over to the river, throwing him in. They take me to the truck. I barely know how to drive this. Bellamy showed me a little on the rover but we haven't had much time. 

I start the truck and drive away. Away from Bellamy.

Bellamy POV

We drive back after checking where we can cross. As we are approaching the spot I keep looking for the truck. It is not where we left it. I stop getting out. 

"Where did they go?" I finally see a body. I rush over to it, praying it is not Clarke. I pull the cloth off, relief that it is not her. It is one of Roan's warriors.

"Trikru must have done this." Roan says. 

"They are taking the fuel to blow up ice nation." He nods. We get into the rover.

We drive down the road where we believe they could be when we see a body in the middle of the road. I get out to see it is one of our guards. 

"It's a trap." I say looking around. I am about to get back in the rover when we are attacked by Trikru. We fight them off, making our way back to the rover. We get in, pulling away from them. We race out of there. I look at Roan seeing something on his face.

"What?" I ask, looking at the road.

"This wasn't Trikru." He says. "This was my warriors." I realize that his men took the fuel not Trikru. He tells me where he thinks they are. 

I race over to the area he says when I see the truck driving across the field. Roan gets on top of the rover as I get close to the truck. Once he is on, I race ahead hoping to cut them off. I get in front of the truck. Stopping a little ways.

I kick the door open, my gun pointed at the grounder. I see Clarke's face. She is worried. I shoot through the window, killing him. I see Clarke hit the brake. The truck stops inches from me. I step out of the rover as relief comes over her. 

We soon continue on our way. Clarke drives the rover while I drive the truck the rest of the way, Roan sits beside me. We get the the spot along the water where the boat will meet us. As we wait, I step up beside Clarke looking at the water. I let out a sigh.

"Worried about Octavia?" She asks. I look at her, nodding. She looks back out. "She'll come around."

"I told her about Lincoln." I say.

"How did she take it?" She asks. I look down. "I see."

"She's shut me out." I say. I feel her hand on mine. I bring my other hand to hers, holding it there.

"Everything will be alright." She says. I nod turning to look at her.

"Clarke, if I don't see you again..."

"No." She stops me. "You will." I nod pulling her against me. I kiss her head before leaning it on top of hers. She raps her arms around me. We hold each other, not knowing when the next time will be.

"Hey." We turn to see Roan walking up to us. "We have a problem." I look at her before following him. We walk up to see an arrow in a barrel. He kicks it over, revealing that it is empty. She looks at me and I know that our last hope is gone.

The boat arrives. The fuel we have left is loaded. I kiss Clarke goodbye before going back. I need to check on Octavia. Losing Lincoln has hurt her more than I can know. She didn't even know till yesterday. I drive away staring at the boat one last time before