I cannot do anything right. I am the CEO of screwing things up, of ruining relationships, of being incapable of anything. this quarantine is making me so depressed because all I do is think and think and think and now I don't have activities to bury myself in anymore. my thoughts are exploding like fireworks inside my head and then smoking and filling my head slowly but surely until there's just all these thoughts that I cannot stop.
What do I do? How do I stop this never ending thought process that has been going on repeat in my brain?? i don't sleep anymore. it's 3 am right now. I've been going to bed around 6 and waking up around 10, going on with the day. I can't be the girl that I need to be for other people. I don't know who to be for me. I'm just here in this little cloud where I'm living in the present and that's not okay because I need plans and structure. I'm quarantined with just my thoughts and I cannot do anything to stop it.
And this Coronavirus??? It scares me. So many people are going to die from this. I live in a small town. How many people am I going to know that pass away from this? How many of them am I going to be close to? How do I stop myself from thinking these things and crying all the time??
How do I get out of the labyrinth that is my thought process?
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Excerpts From Books that I'll Never Write
Teen FictionJust a book full of wanna-be stories :) except if you skip to 101 or 102 it's just me complaining because I'm a mess and no one reads this. it basically sucks. The feeling explode on excerpt #102, I strongly suggest starting there.
