Excerpts From Books that I'll Never Write

Excerpt Four

"Talk," Nikki said after she has entered the room and shut the door.
"In the beginning, it was the perfect love story. I had Jay dare me so that I had an excuse to date you. I was in love. It was so amazing. I thought I was in a fairy tale, and-"
"And then you realized how pathetic you sound by saying all this stuff?" Nikki interrupted.
"Shut up," Ty said.
"Wow. You really know how to win a girl's heart!" Nikki said sarcastically.
"Look, Nikki, I'm sorry. But just listen to me."
"Fine," Nikki said. "Go."
"We went to the fair. It was amazing. The kiss, honestly, it scared me. I was scared to be in love. I was scared of you because you brought out the most in me. Not the best. Not the worst. The most. The part of me that I didn't know existed. It scared me, Nikki. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have been a jerk. I'm so sorry. If I could, I would do everything differently."
"I would've redone everything too. Ty, this sucked for me. I was put through so much," Nikki replied.
"I'm sorry."
"Sorry doesn't always work," Nikki snapped back.
"Nikki, when we went to find you, I was sent back in time. I realized what I did wrong. I realized that I love you. I need you," Ty said.
"You want to know the problem with you?" Nikki asked.
"Do I want to know?" Ty asked.
"Probably not," Nikki said. "But you need to hear it, and I'd like to say it."
"Okay then. I'm ready."
"The problem with you is you hurt me, and I can't help but fall back in love with you. You always suck me back in. Like a black hole. You always find some way to pull me back when I really need to stay away. You've sucked in my heart, and I can't leave," Nikki said as tears streamed down her face. "I can't do this every time you get scared. I got scared too. The thing is, I was able to control myself."
"Nikki, I can change! I'll try again! I can make this work!" Ty pleaded.
"Ty, this is an emotional roller coaster. If you ride a roller coaster too many times what happens?"
"You get really excited, and you do it again?"
"You throw up. You throw up , Ty. Go on a roller coaster too many times, and you throw up. I can't do this all the time!! Ty, I love you. I'll probably never stop loving you."
"Then don't. Date me. I'll try again. We can make this," Ty motioned between the two of them, "work. It won't get that bad ever again."
"You don't know that! I'd love to be friends, but I can't love you. I can't after what happened. I almost ruined my future because of you, Ty."
"I'm sorry, Nikki. I know sorry won't fix this. I know. But I need you. I love you. You're like my lungs. I need you to breathe. I need you to live. I can't survive without you." By this point, Ty was crying too.
"I'm sorry. I can't deal with this. Every time I see you, so many different emotions hit me. It's like I'm hit by a train. I'm stopped. Pushed back. The thoughts won't stop, Ty. The black hole sucks me in. I love you, but I can't keep loving you. I'm sorry, Ty."
"Nikki," Ty breathed.
"Ty, I'm sorry," Nikki whimpered.
"You know what, I can't blame you. I'm sorry I did this to you. I'll never forget you. I really wish we could do this again, but I want you to be happy, even if it isn't with me. I love you."
"I love you too."
"Goodbye Nikki."
"Goodbye Ty."
     Ty and Nikki kissed one last time. Their foreheads rested on each other's while the last words were said.
"I love you, Nikki."
"I love you, Ty."
      Ty walked to the door, and he looked back. Nikki nodded as she bit her lip and a tear ran down her cheek. Ty walked out the door, and Nikki sank to the ground, unable to pretend like she wasn't phased.