Ruel Imagines

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As I opened my eyes, I remembered everything that happened last night.

I remembered every word you said to me.

"I can't do this anymore, Ruel."

"W-what?"

"You're too clingy and you aren't good enough for me."

"Wait, don't say that! You're just mad at me right now."

She shook her head.

"Ever since we started dating, I've felt like you've been holding me back. You're not what I need right now."

"Y/n, what are you saying?"

"Ruel, we're not meant for each other. These past few months have been exhausting. We can't have one conversation that won't end up in an argument. You have priorities and I have mine."

"But you're my priority!"

"Well, you aren't mine."

The words replayed in my head, and they hurt just as much.

I stood up, going into the guest room, hoping to see her.

When I opened the door, the room was empty. The sheets were still made perfectly.

"No. No, No, this can't be happening." I said to myself, beginning to panic.

I ran into y/n and my's room, opening the closet door. Her side was empty.

"You-you left without saying goodbye." I whispered, feeling as if I was going to faint.

I went to reach for my phone on the night stand, but a blue piece of paper caught my eyes. I grabbed it, sitting down on the bed.

With shaky hands, I slowly opened it, revealing y/n's handwriting, messier than usual. It was as if she was trying to write down everything as quick as possible.

Hey, Ruel. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I got mad at you for no reason and I'm sorry for everything I said. I promise I didn't mean most of the things I said. You deserve so much better and I feel awful for saying some things. However I think that you and I aren't meant to happen right now. Your career is finally taking off and I'm always busy with school. We never have much time together anymore. It isn't fair to either of us. I hope one day you can find someone who will be there for you and will love you endlessly. I truly did love you, and I still do. No matter what happens, I'm always going to have a place in my heart for you. Thank you for everything. You were the first person I've ever truly loved and I'm so grateful for these past two years. I'm sorry this goodbye was crappy. Maybe we will find each other in the future, so this isn't the end; therefore, we don't have to say goodbye. I love you so much. Please don't be upset. I'm safe with my friend right now. I love you. Take care. --y/n

Tears dropped down on the paper as I threw it onto the bed.

How could you leave without saying goodbye?

I grabbed my phone and quickly called her. It went to voicemail.

"Y/n, please call me back. I can't let you go. You didn't even say goodbye. Did these two years mean nothing?"

Frustrated, I threw my phone next to the letter.

A few minutes later, I heard my phone ringing. Grabbing it quickly, I picked up.

"Hello?"

"Hey."

"Y/n, where are you?" I asked, trying to keep myself from crying.

"I'm somewhere. Are you okay?"

"How could you?" I felt my voice before shaky. "You left without an explanation. You didn't even say goodbye."

"Maybe I didn't want to say goodbye. It hurts to see you and I didn't want to see you cry. I promise I'll be back. Just wait for me, please."

"No, that's not fair to me. I'm not going to let you go for who knows how long and when you need me, to just let you come back. That's not fair. You didn't even give me a hug or anything. You just packed up and left. If you really cared, you would've at least said bye."

"I'm sorry, Ruel, but it's easier to just leave things as they are."

"No, it's not! This is so confusing! You don't think this is hurting me? I woke up to find you gone and a note as your explanation?"

"I know it's pathetic, but it felt right."

"To leave? Without giving me anything except a note?"

"Ruel, quit being dramatic. You knew I was never good with goodbyes."

I scoffed. "Clearly. You can't use that as an excuse for walking out on me though."

"I can't deal with this right now."

"And I can? You're always running away from your problems, y/n. I needed you the most last night, yet you just started to argue with me. You told me that you would always be here for me. I was always there for you. Through everything, I never left. You gave me a million reasons to walk away, but I cared enough to stay. I've worked so hard for this, and now that I'm finally getting somewhere in my career, you're just leaving?"

"I'm sorry, but get over it. Life moves on. You'll be fine."

"No, you can't say that! You're acting as if we only dated for a day. We dated for more than two years! I thought you would care more."

"I do care. I'm just not being over dramatic."

"You know what? Talking to you is like talking to a brick wall. After two years I thought you'd learn commitment, but I guess not. Whatever. If you don't want to be with me anymore, fine. Just don't call me when you need me to do something for you. If you want us to break up, you could have just told me instead of leaving. It's not fair to me to have to wait if you stopped loving me. Have a good life, I guess. Bye." I said, hanging up.

Never would I have ever thought you would walk away, just like that. You told me you would never break my heart.  We were never good at goodbyes, but at least I was good at closure. You never gave me any closure. I'm still waiting for the day to come when I would finally receive a note from you telling me why you just left.