Ruel Imagines

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[UNEDITED]

Where are you? What's gone wrong?

I inhaled the cold air.

The snow is beginning to fall like they did from your eyes. I still smell the sweet scent of your perfume.

Do you still have the stuffed bear I gave you? I still have your hoodie. When you left, I was sure you'd come back to get it, but you never did.

You told me not to contact you again, and I promised I wouldn't, but here I am still dialing your number 24/7.
Even if I can't hear you, I still see you.

Sometimes in my dreams, I'll see you smiling, and I hate to admit it, but seeing your smile makes me feel at home. I still get that warm feeling you'd get when you'd smell fresh baked pies.

You probably don't think about me, but I wonder how you are.

"Hold on, okay? Don't leave me please." was the last thing I told you.

I should have told you that I loved you instead.

One step. Two steps. Closer to the end.

I get scared every time. I refuse to believe that you left me. I still make you a bowl of soup every night, just like I used to. The only thing that's different is the feeling.

I was filled with hope when I was with you. Now when I think about you I feel like I lost every thing that's ever meant something to me. You meant every thing to me.

I don't know what to do, but then again what is there to do? No matter what I do or what I say, you'll never come back.

You told me to go, but I couldn't. How could I leave the one person that has meant everything to me? In the end, I didn't leave, but you did.

Wait, no. You didn't leave. You didn't leave. You didn't leave.

You're just away for a bit. You're somewhere out there and I know we'll be together again one day, just like you promised.

Now that you're gone, you've left me here. Every one moves on eventually, but why haven't I?

I looked at the white petals falling from the tree.

"If there's something you want to do, do it." you always told me to go with my gut, even if it was impulsive.

In that moment I wanted to collapse and fall into another world with you.

"I'll be back, but don't wait for me."

How was I supposed to let you go?

I kept walking forward, afraid that if I turned around I wouldn't see you.

I slowly approached the place where I knew you would be.

"Hey." I smiled at you, sitting down.

I looked down at the ground, brushing the snow off your temporary home.

"I brought you these. The store ran out of the strawberry flavor, but I bought you some chocolate ones." I said, holding back my tears.

"Please come back soon," I whispered. "It's snowing now. Winter's your favorite season, remember? You told me you like winter because of the snow crystals. I wish time were like snow crystals. Maybe then I could have stayed with you a little longer."

"Is it wrong that I still get scared to see you? It's not that I don't want to see you, cause that's far from beyond the truth. I'd do anything to see you."

"I think I'm scared since I never know how I'll react," I laughed softly, "some days I'll come to you crying and others I'll be in the best mood."

"I hope you know I still think about you. I always do. I think about you every time I have good news or whenever I'm bored and just want to talk to you. I miss you."

"Promise me we'll meet again, okay?"

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