Aphotic ✔️

Chapter 13- i hate you

Arron's pov:

I hated her, more than anything

She made me feel weak and dependent and I hated that feeling, I hated myself for allowing her to have that impact on me.

Feelings make you weak, something I won't ever be but I keep going back to her and act in ways that surprise my own sentiments.

I've tried to deny it, I've told myself that it's only her body that I'm after like it always was with everyone else, but why does her presence scare me? Why do I feel terrified whenever I'm near her? Why do I always want to run away and never see her again? And yet why does my heart yearn for her so much?

Nothing made sense and it was driving me insane, absolutely out of my mind.

'One more day Arron, just for today I'll be with her and then I'll distance myself'

When she said she'd leave, if it was someone else I would've normally stood there emotionless and tell her to do whatever she wants

Since that's what I always do, it's never more than the body, it was never that with her. From the first time her eyes reminded me of someone I wanted to forget forever and someone I wanted to treasure forever.

hearing those words from her, my heart was overwhelmed with fear and pain, just imagining her leaving was painful enough

I can't understand any of these emotions but all I know is that she's engraved in me and I know I should be running away

But I can't stop and it's making me sick

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"Girls, I think i..." Mia spoke while poking her food with her fork as the crowded cafeteria overlapped with voices

"Speak already" marry spoke clearly annoyed as we all waited for whatever she was going to say

Mia was like the girl crush of the school, every other guy had a crush on her, but she was with Andrew and apparently loved him to death

She was skinny, had long hair with and her body language screamed beaming confidence, she was social, kind and funny. Most popular among the group

"I think Arron likes me" I looked up at her as I was eating almost choking on my food as I tried to process her words

"Bitch, not everyone likes you" marry spoke as a matter of fact as she rolled her eyes at Mia

"You're just jealous that you have no one" Mia attacked back with a bitchy voice while she eyed marry

"Arron doesn't like anyone Mia, you're just over thinking" Flynn calmly said as she slurped the soup, staring at her spoon

"I agree, it's Arron we're talking about come on" Emma added as she raised her eyebrows

'Is it that impossible for him to like someone?'

I scanned mia's face, her mood went from happy to annoyed to angry and to sad In a matter of seconds.

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"Okay guys, we're going to do a project that'll be a lot of fun so you guys can relieve some stress" the teacher spoke with bursting enthusiasm as majority of the students groaned looking at each other

'Fuck no, chemistry project..... I'm fucked up'

"The project is going to be in groups, and I'm choosing" the teacher added with a disappointed voice as he scanned the uninterested faces of the students