the golden raises of the sun shone through the rather small window, illuminating the dull mono colored room. it seemed to be a clear and bright day and i hoped my life just for today would be as bright and clear
"yes mom, i really am fine" i told my worried mom a million times as she bombarded me with endless questions about how i'm feeling or if my memories are being weird though i don't exactly know what she meant by that
"okay that's good, change into your clothes and we'll go home in a while" she spoke as she held my arm lifting me off the bed
as i sat up she slowly moved the hospital shoes in front of me so i can get up easily
"i really hope i stay sick forever" i did't intend to say that out loud but i'm not afraid to add that i don't regret it
she slowly looked up at me with her expression softening for a while
"what are you even saying" she mumbled under her breath
"at least you'd treat me nicely" i sighed and i saw her face slightly twitch with pain
she maintained her silence as she helped me stand up and held my waist in a supportive manner walking me towards the washroom
of course it's always the silent treatment, it's how my family works..hiding the truth with lies and more lies
pretending like everything is fine and that we're all normal when we're clearly far from being normal
sighing i decided to go with the flow, not forcing her to say something or seeing any point of further continuing the conversation.
we moved into the hallways as i wore a very simple and rather dull outfit my mom picked for me. black skinny jeans with a over sized black top
she's not usually very fond of black i wonder why she bought this outfit, the possibility of her just grabbing anything from the cupboard was also very high so i didn't give it much thought
"yes thank you so much" my mom politely bowed to the nurse who had been with me since i was shifted to my room and had been keeping a keen eye on all my symptoms doing her best at her job
"mrs.tan you have to be back next week for a follow up checkup" the doctor spoke to my mother as he smiled at me politely
he was rather young, maybe in his early thirties and wore black squared glasses which complimented him quite well, though he was shorter than arron
can't blame him though, even mr.svenson, who's very tall seems like a midget next to arron. he's a legit giraffe.
"here you go" i turned my complete focus on the conversation between the doctor and my mother again as he passed on a bottle of pills to my mother before bowing politely and leaving
"what's that for?" i spoke as my curiosity got the best of me
"it's for you focus" my mom vaguely replied without looking at me as she stuffed the bottle in her bag
my mind wandered to what arron said the other day, no matter how stupid it sounded the word won't leave my head
'memory repressing pills'
"what about the other one" i spoke referring to the pills i'd been taking since as long as i remember to increase my focus so i can study better
they did give me insomnia and made my head hurt like crazy resulting with me not focusing at all but apparently y mom trusted the doctor who recommended them way more than she trusted me so i ended up taking three doses of them daily
"this one is better" she spoke with a sigh leading the way as i followed he behind
i wonder what made her suddenly change the pills i was finally getting used to the old ones, wonder what will be the side effects of these new ones
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returning home i was shocked and relived to see Emma there waiting for me as i jumped at her
"i can't breathe..stop" her suffocated voice made me let go of her as i giggled. suddenly i wasn't tired at all and life just got a bit brighter seeing her there
i was hesitant to step in this house and live alone a whole day and the next many years of my life here alone, Emma saved me from today's panic attack.
"let's go to my room" i dragged her by the arm running up the stairs, i could literally see my mom's disgusted expression from the back of my head as i did so
"so how did you end up here?" i questioned knowing that my parents don't let anyone in the house unless it's a very important business dinner, and bringing a friend of mine at home had been a great desire of mine since childhood but that never happened because my parents would always say straight up no
so this is basically the first time that i got a friend from school at home, in my bedroom with me, call me crazy but it is indeed a big deal for me and i was very excited to spend a fraction of my day with Emma.
"your mom won't let me in but i have my ways" Emma flipped her hair as she plopped on my white bed at the corner of the room with the window
the wall behind the headboard was coral pink and the rest were a neat off white. it was pink because my parents had presumed that every teenage girl liked pink.
"yeah, very sorry about that" i said as i joined her on the bed laying down with my bed tangling off the edge of the bed
"are you fine though?" she questioned as she laid beside me horizontally
i hummed in response while we both stared at the ceiling
"your home is quite...elite i must say" Emma spoke again
"..but why do you guys stay away from all the ..rich people stuff"
"rich people stuff?" i questioned even though i clearly know what she meant
yes my dad did own a quite successful publishing company but we didn't live in the rich neighborhood where Emma, arron and all rich people in town lived though i don't know why
we don't attend any rich fancy parties or formalities and my dad keeps me as far as he can from the business, i never dared to question any of this because that's how my family is
'curiosity killed the cat'. this rule is very strictly followed by my parents i must say. I've always been taught to accept and not question, weather it was my school, the subjects i take, the people i meet, the clothes i wear and even the medications i take ...it's all decided and i can't question it because then i won't be the perfect daughter
"i honestly don't know" i spoke after a long while of silence replying to Emma's question
"maybe my parents are not fond of the 'rich stuff'" i added as Emma hummed in response
we talked about random things, how chemistry is fucking shit and how we're never going to complete the project in time
we laughed on stupid stuff remembering tele tubbies and barney from our childhood and honestly that was the best day i'd ever spent in my depressing yet lively looking room..maybe Emma was someone i can finally call a friend
"i really love you iris" Emma finally recovered from the laughing fit as she spoke
"i love you too Emma" i replied smiling before she pulled me in a hug
"I've spent years with people i call my friends yet you seem to understand me more in just few days than they did in years" she whispered against my ear, still hugging me
not knowing what to say i hugged her tighter for a while i thought again that maybe i could have a chance at living a better life
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