Aphotic ✔️

Chapter 80- The end

Lonely was the night as i lay in my bed, never had i felt the void inside me grow so much as it did after we bid our farewell. Tomorrow i would fly away, somewhere far away; taking the loneliness with me however leaving my heart back here in this very place, Seattle.

Him, it was only him since the start. He was the first one who made me see who i really was, he was the first one who broke the barriers built around my heart, he was the first one to show me that love exists and that it was beyond the touching of bodies. 

He was and will always be the only person I've truly loved while being happy, I can't live without him and it made me realize how dependent i am on him. How lonely i am without him, how empty and broke i am without him. I should be able to see who i am without him, i should be able to accept myself and go on without him, he should help me grow and prosper but why does my very soul rely on him? 

It only made the fact that i have to leave more clear, it made me realize i had to leave to develop into the future me, into a strong woman who can go on with or without someone. Arron, will always stay within me, he'll stay within the winter rain and autumn leaves, he'll always remain in the smell of folded t shirts and black leather jackets. The skies won't let me ever forget him, he's the only one for me however i need to love myself first before than. 

No matter how hard the parting may be, i'm certain that our end will be beautiful.

I closed my eyes, setting my mind free as i drifted off to sleep knowing that tomorrow everything will be different. All I've ever known will no longer remain.

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"it's okay" arron held my hand squeezing it as i entered Adam's hospital room, holding the straps of my back firmer than usual, my anxiety rising up.

I sat down by his bed holding his hand in mine.

"Adam..." i gulped my own saliva back, not being able to speak as my throat suddenly felt dry.

"I'm sorry to leave when you're like this" I spoke, i didn't hold back my tears this time.

"You and your family, every moment i spent with you guys...i was happy" I continued as my voice cracked.

"Everything was just so beautiful and i would give anything to have it back" I felt arron sit down beside me.

"when i come back, greet me with your bright smile and eyes that hold the shine of a million galaxies" I bought his small hand to my face, smiling at the memories and the short time span we had spent together.

"You said you wanted to grow up like arron....then wake up please" i finished as arron closed his eyes, turning his head to the side.

"let's go, i have to visit my mom too" he spoke after several moments of silence.

"he'll wake up, i'm certain he will" arron whispered with a smile wiping away my tears.

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We walked over to the room his mother was in a s i hesitated to step inside.

'what will i say to her? is she even ready to face me yet?'

"iris" arron spoke noticing my hesitant behavior as he held my shoulders forcing me to look into his eyes.

oh how i'll miss his dark eyes and his gentle touch that never fails to reassure me even when i'm at my lowest. His deep voice that always has it's way of making my heart skip a beat.