Aphotic ✔️

chapter 27- The Teacher

i convinced Emma to stay over ignoring my mother's annoyance growing with every second passing by, i replied to all of the 'how are you?' texts that were rather dry and sent as a formality 

i glanced at Emma from the couch, she was sitting in front of the dresser admiring her healthy black raven hair, smiling to myself i turned back on my phone 

"what's going on between you and arron?" Emma spoke, while I was taken aback by her sudden question

" n-nothi-" I spoke trying not to sound flustered but was cut off by Emma

"don't say nothing" she spoke

"you guys slept in the same room and today when he saw you passed out the way he panicked says it all"

Silence

I didn't know what to say anymore, she figured it all out and denying it won't do any good now but to be honest even I don't know what's going on between us or what we are

Before I could say something Emma spoke again

"I won't tell the rest of the girls... Your secret's safe with me"

Sighing I told her everything that has been going on of course leaving out all the kiss scenes

"well what can I say arron...." she spoke with a pause before continuing

"arron is complicated... Just be careful" she said and I could see that she was genuinely worried

I know I shouldn't have asked for more and I know I should've just listened to Emma but guess what... Curiosity actually did kill the cat

"what kind of complicated?" I spoke hesitantly as leaned forward staring at Emma waiting for an answer

"I don't... Wanna make you guys fight.." she spoke and I immediately shut her up by saying that she doesn't need to worry about that

"well he... Is not the relationship kinda guy" her voice was still hesitant, somewhere inside I did know that he was not the relationship kinda guy but something told me that it was more than that

"he.. Had a one night stand.." Emma continued

Ouch! That hurt

I know it was way before he knew me but I could feel the adrenaline pumping in my veins and such a vulnerable emotion called jealously take over me

But it was just a one night stand what's wrong with that

"... With a teacher" Emma immediately closed her eyes in guilt after telling me that

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"What!?!"

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Arron's pov:

Laying on my bed my mind wondered towards that day in the school

What made me do all that and what made me so scared I did not know but it made me realize one thing that iris meant more to me than I ever thought she would

The first day we met in school, her eyes...

Her eyes that shine like they have a million galaxies hidden behind them

But why did they remind me of the one I wanted to forget so badly. The one woman that opened a door of suffering in my life that I won't ever be able to close

And the time me met on the rooftop then again her eyes reminded me of another so close yet so far away from me

The two people that taught me love and hate are reflected in those beautiful sparkling eyes of hers

It made me despite her at first but my whole being was pulled towards her by a force so strong that I couldn't resist it and before I knew I was already too deep in

My life before her was dark..  aphotic, Where no light reaches no life resides

She shone on my aphotic word like a bright ray of light and dragged me out of the dark so effortlessly.... God she is beautiful

But at the same time I was terrified of the light that invaded my aphotic light, can I handle it? Or will the light vanish between the overwhelming darkness?

Whatever happens... For the first time I want to break my own barriers

I want to trust again and I want to learn what love actually is... My messed up past even though I may regret it forever I want to let it go if she's with me

I'm willing to change for her and soon enough I'll get the courage to tell her what I feel about her... Once I'm the perfect one for her.. Just once when I know who I am and I accept who I am... I'll tell her

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"no,no, no Emma NO" I roamed around my room while Emma held her head totally regretting her decision to spill everything out of her mouth

I mean okay fuck it... Sleeping with a teacher is not that bad.... BUT SHE WAS MARRIED AND HAD TWO CHILDREN

she obviously consented herself but arron should've refused. How could he do that? At times like these I feel like I definitely don't know anything about him

Just when I feel like we could have a future together something happens and I get dragged back to the torturous state of mind where everything seems uncertain and I'm suddenly insecure about everything

Suddenly nothing makes sense, how we first met and how everything escalated so fast. How unsure our relationship is. Maybe all he wants is to have sex with me

But remembering his gaze and certain actions make me think otherwise. I don't know what's real or fake at this point

No matter what he says, there's no excuse good enough for what he did

"iris please don't make me regret telling you" Emma was now worried as she glanced uncomfortably at me

I suddenly wanted to cry, it was too much for me... The thought of arron leaving was too much for me

I wanted to see him I wanted to hold him tight and I suddenly didn't want to care about anything Emma said, I wanted to pretend like i never heard anything

I wasn't ready to let him go.. No matter how bad he is.. I want him, I need him. I'm ready to accept it all

"I really need a hug" I whispered with glossy eyes staring at the floor

All the adrenaline suddenly seemed to have left my body

I felt Emma's thin frame hold me close to her as I wrapped my arms around her snuggling my face into her shoulder

"don't leave me please" I felt vulnerable... Very insecure and weak. I needed surety, a promise that would calm down my anxious heart

"I won't" Emma spoke softly as her hand ran over my back calmly

I won't be alone

I won't end up alone

I won't end up alone

It's okay

Arron will be here, he won't leave

Emma will be here, she won't leave

You'll be fine iris, it'll all be fine

Arron has an explanation for all this, he won't ever do that to you

I know he won't I've seen it in his eyes, and eyes never lie

I've seen how weak he is and how broken he actually is.. I'll accept him... I'll take the pressure and responsibility

I won't let him leave