Fuse

thirty - two | support

S P E N C E R J A M E S O N

"You really thought you could escape me?" He sniggers as his rough, dirty hands roam themselves along my skin.

He pulls my legs closer towards him and I scream, desperately trying to get away but there's no use, he's too strong. "No, no" I whimper as I try pushing him away, struggling again him as I thrash my arms out.

"You'll never be rid of me Spencer. I'll always be here, in your thoughts, in your dreams. I'll make your life hell." He warns as he begins pulling my pants down.

Uncontrollable sobs leave my mouth as I continue screaming "No!"

"Spencer, hey wake up." My eyes snap themselves open and I gasp for air as beads of sweat pour down my face. My breathing is erratic and my whole body feels like it's burning.

I thought I was going to die in my own dream.

"Hey, look at me." Kane whispers as he runs his hand through my damp hair, pushing it back off my face. "It was just a dream, you're with me okay? I won't let anyone hurt you." I nod my head as he pulls me into his chest, wrapping his arm around me and holding me close.

He's everywhere, he's never going to go away.

When my eyes eventually open again they land on Kane's skin. My whole body is laying on top of him and my face is literally buried into his neck. His arms are wrapped securely around me while mine are clinging to him like my life depended on it.

I lift my head and look at him but his eyes are already watching me. "Hey," he murmurs.

"Hi."

Different specks of light beam into the room and off of Kane's face as he stares at me. I wish things were different, I wish I had met him before Marshall. But then again, if I hadn't moved here with him I would never have met Kane at all.

I sigh dramatically, placing my head back down into his neck and I feel him chuckling underneath me.

"I don't want to move from here, ever." I mumble against his skin and he runs his hand up and down my back, his fingers tracing my spine.

"What's the time?" He asks and I reluctantly lean over to check the clock on his nightstand.

"Nine thirty."

He lets out a small groan as he tightens his hold on me. "Your parents should be here soon."

I called them yesterday afternoon and they said they would get the nearest flight out here. As much as I like my mom's husband, I told them it would better if it was just the two of them. I didn't want to have to say it in front of him as well.

They're unaware of what I want to talk to them about. All I told them is that it's urgent but nothing to worry about, I assured them that I wasn't sick but that they did need to come as soon as possible.

I still have no idea of what I'm even going to say to them. How are you supposed to even break that kind of news to your own parents? I'm going to have to sit and go through everything with them, every single detail and I just don't know if I'll physically be able to.

"I'll be there with you the whole time, that's unless you would rather tell them alone. I don't want to push any boundaries." Kane says and I lift my head again to look at him.

"I want you there." I say and he nods understandably before quickly kissing my forehead.

He groans slightly. "As much as I'd love to stay here with you all day, we do really need to get up."

I roll my eyes, groaning as I get up off of him and strop as I dramatically walk into the en-suite. I hear him laughing as I pick up my toothbrush and brush my teeth. He joins me and stands beside me, picking up his and doing the same. I catch his eye in the mirror and start laughing, accidentally choking on some toothpaste while he stands there laughing at me.

I nudge him playfully but he doesn't even budge, he's like a solid freaking rock. Rubbing my shoulder with my hand I glance up at him. He's already looking down at me with his toothbrush hanging out of the side of his mouth and his cheeks begin to lift into a grin.

"Why is your arm so hard?" I ask and he chuckles.

"I'm a boxer Spencer, I'm not going to have feathers for arms am I?" He says sarcastically and I roll my eyes at him.

I look at my reflection in the mirror and my stomach feels as though it's balling into all these tiny little knots. My hand reaches up and my index finger traces over my bruised eye as I gently touch it. Kane watches me in the mirror and puts his toothbrush back, pulling my hand away and turning me to face him.

"You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my entire life. You have scars but they are what make you who you are. They make you strong, they make you brave, they make you powerful." He murmurs and I watch him closely, trying not to give in to my tears. "Someday you won't remember this pain you thought would last forever." I wrap my arms around him and he presses his lips to the top of my head, slowly running his hands through my hair.

I so desperately want to believe everything he's saying but when you've gone though so much emotionally, it's difficult to just suddenly change your way of seeing yourself.

Hopefully with time, I might finally be able to.

I walk back into his room and flick through some clothes, eventually settling with some black yoga pants and an oversized sweater. I tie my hair into a messy bun and consider trying to apply some makeup to my face but then decide not to.

As much as I want to cover up my marks, I also don't want to hurt myself while trying to. I don't think all the tiny cuts on my skin can really take being suffocated in foundation and whatever else.

Kane dresses casually too, in grey joggers and a white tee shirt. I honestly still can't understand how he manages to look so good just wearing sweat pants. I wish I had that talent.

My phone buzzes and I gulp back the jump starting to form in my throat. "They're here." I say as I look up at him.

He gives me a supportive smile and holds my hand, "lets go then."

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AN: I watched uncharted today..
I was impressed.

Let's be fair, I wanted to watch it purely because of Rudy, even though he was only in it for like the first ten minutes lol.

Anyways, hope you're all doing okay!

This gif of Stephen does things to
me lemme tell u ⬇️

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