My mother's death outcomed for a lot of change, yung tatay kong may panibagong asawa will take custody of me. Matagal na silang hiwalay ni mama, hindi dahil may third party na nangyari. Siguro kase, hindi lang talaga para sa isa't isa. For the mean time, dun narin muna ako pinapatira ni papa para daw makilala ko si tita.
Sa tuwing bibisita kasi ako sakanila ay nasa work yung bago niya at hindi ko nakikilala ng maayos, though we met naman sa family dinner last month.
"Kailangan ba talagang dun ka muna?" Tanong ni Xyv dahil ngayon na ako aalis at nag aayos nalang ako ng gamit.
"Babalik naman ako anukaba, saglit lang yon!" Ngumiti ako sakaniya kaya naman niyakap ako nito."Para namang di na tayo magkikita! Hoy teh, sa Lyceum parin ako mag aaral. Akala mo naman lilipad ako!"
"Eh kasi, wala na kong taga luto! di narin kita mababantayan." Sabi pa nito habang natatawa.
"Wag kang mag aakyat ng lalaki dito ha! Kokotongan kita," I laughed.
baka kasi gawing kwarto ng lalaki yung kwarto ko! Dun pa sila mag lambutchingan, gosh so ew!
"Di mo sure," kinindatan pa ako nito kaya naman inikutan ko siya ng mata. "Oh 'yan na pala sundo mo,"
napatingin naman ako sa may pinto at nakitang nandon si Raz sa gilid at naghihintay.
"Ginagawa mo dito?" Nagtatakang tanong ko sakaniya dahil hindi ko naman siya tinawagan and It was already 11pm at night.
"Eh balita ko lilipat ka na daw? Driver mo ko diba," kumindat ito saakin at ngumiti pa.
"Kinareer mo naman!" Binigay ko na kay Raz ang bag na hawak hawak ko.
"Xyv, una na ko ha!" Kumaway na ako sakaniya at sinarado na ang pinto.
"So, san ba tayo miss?" Tanong nito nang makapasok na kami sa sasakyan niya.
Natatawang inilagay ko sa waze yung address ng bahay namin at tiyaka bumaling sakaniya.
"Are you good?" Tanong nito saakin habang nagmamaneho.
"I think so... it's hard to accept, but I promised her that I would succeed. Binabantayan niya parin naman ako." I painfully smiled at him. "I won't let her down."
Tahimik lang kami sa buong byahe, wala pa kasi akong kagana kagana na makipagusap, I needed silence to let everything sink in.
Bigla namang tumigil ang sasakyan ni Raz kaya naguguluhan akong tumingin sakaniya, we were supposed to go in Cavite.
"May problema ba?" Tanong ko sakaniya at agad naman siyang bumaba sa sasakyan.
Inalalayan ako nitong bumaba and I figured that we were in the middle of nowhere, It was quiet and the I could feel the cold breeze brushing through my skin. The view was marvelous because I could see the city lights from here.
"On the way narin naman 'to kaya dumaan na ko, I thought you needed to relax.." tumingin ito saakin at napakamot sa batok niya. "Or if ayaw mo we could—"
"Thank you," I cutted him off and sat on the edge of the cliff, one wrong move and I would die but I decided not to care.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath emptying my mind.
"Easy, baka mahulog ka." tumabi si Raz saakin. "Dapat sakin ka lang mahulog," He joked and tried to make me smile.
I placed my head on his shoulder and tears suddenly fell to my eyes, He put his arms around me and caressed my back.
I was silent, I couldn't utter any words. My heart was completly shattered and I didn't know what to do or what to think at this time, I just wanted this pain to be gone, Pero masyadong mahirap para mawala iyon agad.
Accepting the fact the my mother is now gone is just... hard. Sobrang hirap harapin na sa pag gising ng umaga wala na yung babaeng nag bigay buhay saakin.
The next day, I was already in Cavite. Nagkukulong sa kwarto not wanting to eat or talk to anybody. Crying and Sleeping became my daily routine for the week. My dad will always knock in my room and leave food in the doorsteps pero hindi ko rin ginagalaw. Walang gana ang buong katawan ko para gumawa ng kahit ano.
I got the keys before I locked myself up kaya wala silang magawa kundi maghintay akong mabulok dito.
My phone would ring everyday. Kyn, Xyv, Eana, Jax and Raz would always try to talk to me in the phone. Call me and text me countless of times but I didn't manage to reply or pick up the calls.
Hindi narin muna ako pumapasok sa school, how could I continue my life if I am still stuck in this nightmare of mine?
I was here, lying in bed without any thoughts, not caring for anything. I'm aware na napapabayaan ko na ang sarili ko, Lost a lot of pounds and my face resembles an addict.
A tear fell as I looked at my mother's picture carrying me when I was baby.
"I miss you so much, Ma..."
The pain that I felt is different than any other pain, This time.. The battle was tougher than I expected, Losing her was the last thing that I wanted.
Days and weeks passed that I was like this, I cried myself to sleep everday and my body became weak.
Bumagsak bigla ang katawan ko, I didn't know what was happening. My head is spinning and the world is turning.
As my eyes were about to close, I saw the door was forcedly open. My forehead wrinkled as I saw a familiar face.
Lumapit ito saakin and looked at me with his worried eyes, I couldn't bare to move dahil nanlalabo na ang paningin ko.
"Fuck! I'm here Jacquelyn, stay with me a little longer, Hold on please." I saw his tears fell as he carried me away.
I closed my eyes and the flashback suddenly starts, memories that I didn't even know about came running to my head.
I opened my eyes again and saw him with my blurry vision, I caressed his face and tried to form a bitter smile.
"Zacchaeus," I whispered as I loss consciousness.
I remember everything now.
-end of chapter 14-
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