Star Crossed

Chapter 31

It's been already a month and I'm getting weaker everyday, my lips and face became pale and I cover it with makeup para hindi mapansin ni Raz.

Yes, I've hidden to everyone that I'm dying. Dahil gusto ko, hanggangg sa huling sandali makita silang masaya. Makita ko yung mga ngiti nila. Not their tears and regrets for what happened.

Alam ko naman na ganito ang mangyayari noon pa man. I didn't expect it would be this soon.

I just started my own family yet I'd have to leave so early.

Today is the day where were going in a trip, hindi ko alam kung saan kami pupunta dahil ayaw naman saakin sabihin ni Raz.

I already packed my things and Ela's too. Hinihintay ko nalang si Raz dahil may kausap pa siya sa telepono at parang ngayon pa lang magpapaalam na mag leave.

"Let's go," nakangiting sambit ni Raz at kinuha ang mga maleta para siya ang magdala dahil buhat buhat ko si Ela.

Ela's was looking at me and giggling, I smiled and stared at her beautiful face for a while.

Mommy will always guide you and watch you from the heavens anak, I love you so much.

"Saan ba kasi tayo pupunta?" I asked Raz nang makapasok na kami sa sasakyan niya at nagsimulang mag drive.

"Sa mars," He said calmly and chuckled at my curious reaction.

"Di ka makausap ng maayos!" I rolled my eyes at him and he just held my hand while his other is in the wheels.

"Trust me, okay?"

Tuwing magtatanong nalang ako palagi siyang babanat ng ganiyan! Trust me, Trust me, eh kung sabihin nalang kaya noh? Pa curious masyado eh.

Ela as a baby, was always sleeping pero ngayon ay gising na gising ito at tinitingnan ang mga bagay sa labas ng sasakyan. She seemed curious and excited dahil minsan lang naman siya makalabas ng bahay namin. Her cute little eyes are disappearing when smiling dahil singkit ito.

Me and Raz would look at each other and smile knowing that I am the mother of his child and he's the father of my child.

Our story seemed like it was about to have a happy ending, ganoon naman talaga ang mangyayari para saakin. But some people who will know my story will say na the ending is sad as I will be dead.

But here's a thing, If the story didn't reach a happy ending, maybe it didn't really end yet. 

As for me, my ending with Raz is the most fulfilling thing I would experience in my lifetime.

I'm happy that he's my beginning and my ending.

"Were here, Love!" Raz chuckled and got out of the car para pag buksan ako ng pinto.

After hours of driving we finally reached our destination. Bumaba na ako sa sasakyan and the atmosphere seems familiar.

Inilagay ko na muna si Ela sa stroller dahil natutulog pa ito, Raz held my hand and smiled at me.

Inalalayan ako nitong makasakay sa bangka at binuhat ang stroller ni Ela para makasakay. Raz carried Ela first dahil nga nasa bangka kami at baka matalsikan pa siya ng tubig.

I took out my phone and captured that moment, the picture was beautiful as it was a stolen shot of Raz looking at Ela while the view in the back is breathtaking.

I'm still trying to remember this place,
my memory isn't that good. But I'm sure i've been here before.

Minutes have passed at nakarating narin kami sa isang isla.

My eyes widened when I realized where we were.

"Do you remember this place?" Raz hugged me from the back while I was holding Ela in her stroller.

"I love you," My eyes became teary at humarap ako sakaniya hugging him even tighter.

He chuckled and held my waist.

He brought me here in Nagsasa Island at Zambales, our first travel. I smiled when I remember the memories we had her.

"Let's do what we did again," He whispered, teasing me and so I glared at him.

"Stop, we have a kid with us for christ's sake!" I rolled my eyes at him and he just laughed and fix the tent.

Napasapo ako sa noo at napaupo ng sandali sa buhangin dahil bigla nalang nanakit ang ulo ko, I closed my eyes and tried to get up ngunit medyo nahihilo na ako.

I sighed and tried hard to fight what I feel, I bit my lips to stop my tears from falling dahil kala mo ay pinupukpok na ang ulo ko sa sobrang sakit. I reached my bag and immediately got the medicines. ininom ko iyon and luckily, Raz was too busy lightning a fire.

Ela started crying kaya naman binuhat ko ito para bahagyang tumahan.

"Shh, stop crying na baby. Mommy's here." Inaalo ko siya tinimplahan ng gatas.

I couldn't breast feed her dahil nahihirapan maglabas ng milk yung breast ko that's why I used formula instead.

"Fly me to moon and let me play among the stars," I sang at her smoothly and Ela stopped crying.

"Let me see what spring is like on jupiter and mars," Raz suddenly came and sang with me.

He smiled at me when I looked at him, Ela was already sleeping kaya naman inilagay ko ulit siya sa kaniyang stroller.

"In other words, hold my hand." He held my hand and put it in his shoulders while he was holding the other.

Our gaze remained locked as he placed his hands on my waist, we started to dance to the music of his voice. Our feet were moving back and forth as our bodies became close that I could feel his hot breath on my cheek.

"In other words, darling, kiss me." He bit his lower lip as he smirked at me.

I chuckled at what he did and continued to dance. He was still staring at me like he didn't have any plans taking it off. I gave out a small smile as my heart was started to beat faster.

After all these years he could still make my heart beat like this, nothing changed. My love for him has never changed.

"Fill my heart with song, and let me sing forever more. You are all I long for, All I worship and adore. In other words, please be true. In other words," He stopped and caressed my face.

He slightly pushed me away as he held my left hand with his right, I slowly spinned out and he reeled my back in. I fell into him, his strong arms wrapping me tight and his hands that are supporting my waist.

"I love you," We both sang and finished the song while still staying in that position.

He leaned over to me and closed his eyes, he tilted his head a bit as he passionately kissed me giving butterflies to my stomach.

He chuckled and hugged me again tightly, my tears fell as we both looked at the sun that was already going down.

"I wish we could be like this, forever." I whispered and wished an impossible thing.

-end of chapter 31-