Accidentally In Love (COMPLETED)

EPILOGUE

After 20 years...

It's too painful to endure this long life alone. If one disappears and one ends up alone.

You were just realized how saddest the life of the one left behind. As time goes by, it's be more and more painful to live. But there is no way of giving up, only moving on and open your heart again.

Ilang taon ang lumipas, wala akong ibang nagawa kundi tuluyan na siyang kalimutan. Oo hindi madali pero kinaya ko.

Twenty years back then when I was fell in love. I'm just twenty years old when I married a woman that I am not expecting I will love the most. The woman, the woman named Xamira Khaleesi.

Twenty years back then, walang araw na hindi ko siya na mi-miss. Walang araw na hindi ko hinahanap hanap ang mga ngiti niya, ang mga yakap niya, ang halik niya, ang kasungitan niya. Lahat lahat ng tungkol sa kaniya ay hinahanap hanap ko ng sobra.

Pero habang tumatagal ang panahon. Na realize ko na siguro hanggang doon lang talaga kami. Saglit lang siyang pinahiram ng tadhana siyangsa akin. Siya ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko, at siya rin ang dahilan kung bakit halos mabaliw ako sa sakit. Sa sakit na nawala ang babaeng mahal na mahal ko.

Hanggang nakalipas ang ilang taon. Marami akong nakakasalamuhang tao. Kahit mahirap pinilit kong ngumiti kahit masakit pinilit kong tumawa. Walang gabing lumipas na hindi ako umiiyak dahil sa na mi-miss ko siya. Gusto ko siyang mahawakan. Gusto ko siyang makita.

It's really hard to miss someone you can't have. Ako yung nagpatunay na ang pag-iyak ay wala sa kasarian kundi sa sakit na nararamdaman. Hindi porket lalaki ako titiisin ko nalang ang sakit at hindi ako iiyak. Halos lahat binuhos ko sa pag-iyak. Pero wala eh, walang nagbabago halos araw araw pakiramdam ko impyerno ang buhay ko.

Kakain ako na wala siya. Matutulog ako ng wala siya at gigising ako ng wala siya.

Hanggang sa patuloy na tumakbo ang panahon. Kasabay din noon ay ang matutunan ko kung paano ang mag move on.

The only thing harder than losing you is moving on.

Hindi pala lahat ng hawak ko ay akin na. Hindi lahat ng nasa atin ay atin na. May mga bagay na bigla nalang babawiin sa atin ng hindi natin inaasahan. Falling in love with her is the second best thing happened in my life. Finding her is the first, and losing her is the worst.

First love is really unforgettable. It's a lie to say that I've let go of past. Nobody let go of past memories. Each tear is an unforgettable memories. Each smile is an undeniable mark. Each heartbeat is an unerasable scar. There's no such thing in this world to be forget. Only Acceptance.

"Stop crying Honey!! She wouldn't like seeing you crying." I wiped those tears falling from her eyes. This woman taught me to love again. That love will always understand the pain. Love covers all pain and make someone feel wonderful again.

"But I can't resist to cry." I hugged her tight and let her cry on my shoulder. I put my gaze on flower in front of me. It's been 20 years since we met.

"Ma'am Jade, Sir Jeydiel. Narito na po ang mga bata." Malungkot ngunit may ngiti kong sinalubong ng yakap ang kambal kong anak. Kasama nila si Manang Lerah.

"My two princesses, Daddy misses you so much. Why took you so long." Hinalikan ko sila sa pisngi at sabay binuhat sa magkabila kong bisig.

"Because Khaleesi walking too slow daddy."

"It's you Xamira, not me." Khaleesi pouted.

Yes I named my daughter after her.

"Khaleesi where's your candle?" Malambing na tanong ng asawa ko. Kanina lang umiiyak siya. Mukhang okay na siya ngayon kaya naman naging kalmado na ako. Ibinigay ni Xamira sa mommy niya ang candle. "And where's your flower, Xamira?" Like Khaleesi, Xamira gave her flower to her mother.

"Say something to tita." Ani ni Jade saka niyapos ang kambal namin.

"We missed you tita. You're so special to mommy and daddy." Napangiti nalang ako sa sinabi ni Xamira. Hinalikan siya ni Jade sa pisngi.

Matapos ay nagsalita naman si Khaleesi. "I want to see you, Tita. Mom crie a lot because she misses you. We love you Tita!" They are all innocent. What they knew is Xamira Khaleesi Hurst is Jade's Sister.

Lumapit ako upang yakapin ang aking mag-ina. Hinalikan ko si Xamira at Khaleesi sa magkabilang pisngi. May ngiti sa labi kong hinalikan si Jade sa labi at noo.

Nakangiti akong tumingala sa langit.

May mga tao talaga na dadating sa buhay natin para mag-iwan ng alala. Alala na hindi dapat ibaon sa limot, alaala na dapat ay manatili sa ating puso.

We are not growing if we're not losing someone. Losing someone is part of one's life. Xamira is one of them. Dumating siya sa buhay ko para mag-iwan sa akin ng aral. She made me realize that there is no such thing in this world more than love. Love is only thing in this world covers all the pain we had.

Buong puso akong ngumiti sa bughaw na kalangitan.

Be matured enough to move on of things that are not meant to be. My past story with Xamira is just like a novel story. She is my prologue, but never been my epilogue.

Napagtanto ko na may mga tao talagang mawawala nalang bigla sa kabanata ng buhay natin. Iyong masakit man pero kailangan magpatuloy dahil hindi pa tapos ang ating sariling storya.

I maybe loved again, but no one can replace you Xamira Khaleesi. First love was still unforgettable. But last love is vital.

Not all love stories has its happy ending. Not all first love last together. But don't worry, wherever you are right now, always remember that you always have special place here in my heart.

This lifetime taught me that love was endless. Kahit patuloy kang masaktan, kusa pa ring bubukas ang puso para muling magmamahal.

My story continues, but our chapter has come to its end. Nevertheless, meeting you would always be my favorite chapter.

And now, I accept the fact that Xamira is not my true love, it was just accidentally in love..

The end