BTS Kidnapped

Part Eighty-Five

Summary:

So...

I'm not doing real good?

My anxiety is high key over all this corona stuff and some personal things going on in my life with my neighbor who is also my ex-mother in law, and my kids, and, ugh.

Someone, somewhere is looking at a fourteen day quarantine and it just legit cannot be me.

I have such wishy-washy mental health that I can NOT be locked in my house for fourteen days, especially when it is the carelessness of my neighbors that might cause it.

I know none of this affects you all, and many of you may not care, but the entire situation of being in lockdown is starting to have really detrimental side-effects.

Most of you all should know that I am a person who loves to travel, and while I have to respect the orders given to stay at home, that still doesn't mean that I, and others like me, aren't suffering from the unavoidable side effects.

I also have to take into consideration that I am one of the people who very fortunately still has my job. But with that comes an almost suffocating need to be on my toes and super aware of what I do/where I go so that something stupid doesn't get me quarantined because my workplace is high key paranoid af and has been quarantining employees for something as little as a cough (which it is what it is but it's starting to get old). This means that I am afraid to even leave my house for much of anything.

I can't go to my friends.

I can't travel to zoos or amusement parks.

I am even afraid to drive to the woods somewhere with my kids (which I can't right now anyway due to their grandmother not listening to the regulations laid out for us all) and go for a walk.

It's SUFFOCATING.

And nothing I can say or do is working to relieve that right now.

So I'm trying to plant flowers and enjoy my porch and backyard but even that is hard too because...neighbors.

Their kids are left free to wander and to roam and to destroy anything they want without consequence or reparations and they seem to think my yard is the place to conduct their tirade which is honestly mentally and physically exhausting as well.

I guess...I'm just asking you all to bear with me? I haven't been able to write in two weeks cause of all of this stuff and I don't see it getting better any time soon because our governor is a man of his own means and has us locked in our homes 'indefinitely', which means I can't even mark a date on my calender to work towards.

I'm also not going to share any of my political or personal views because this story isn't the place, but I just want others to know if you are struggling, I see you.

I'll do my very best to work out of this funk but it has also been raining for days and that doesn't help me either because I hate that kind of weather.

I hope you all enjoy this update!

I will try my very best to post one Wednesday as well, but we will have to see how that goes.

All The Best,

K.

~oooOooo~

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