amnesia // l.h. (DISCONTINUED)

➳ Chapter 15

➳ Alaina's POV

I went over to Luke's house after breakfast to go hang out. Well, he thinks I'm just going over there to hang out, but I really just want to talk about what happened with David and me.

As I knocked on Luke's front door, I saw a boy with curly hair pull into the driveway. In the car with him were two other guys, one with bright red hair and one that was tan with dark hair and blonde highlights in his hair.

The door opened and Luke stood in the doorway. I was pulled into Luke's warm chest. He was so much taller then me. When we hugged, I was just engulfed by Luke's tall structure.

"You smell like cotton candy." I muffled into Luke's chest.

As he laughed at my random comment, I could feel his chest move. "You smell like bananas." He replied.

We finally pulled apart as we heard car doors being closed.

"Dude, we didn't know Alaina was going to be here!" The boy with the curly hair said. As he talked to Luke I could see dimples indented into his cheeks.

I had no idea who these boys were.

"I didn't know you guys were coming." Luke replied to the curly haired boy.

We all went into the house and followed Luke into the living room.

The three boys, who I still didn't know their names, made themselves at home by switching Luke's television on and putting some game into the game console.

The boy with dark hair sat on the couch beside the boy with red hair as the boy with dimples sat on the floor in front of the dark haired boy.

Luke decided to sit beside the boy with red hair.

I still stood up not knowing what to do. I guess Luke noticed that I was just awkwardly standing alone so he patted the open space beside him and smiled.

I sat down beside Luke. I sort of wish that it was just me and Luke so that I could talk about why I really came to Luke's house.

"You can play too. I mean if you want to." Luke said, while nudging me with his elbow.

"I'm fine, thanks." I just quietly sat there beside Luke not knowing what to say. I still had no clue who these guys were.

"Luke." I whispered into his ear.

Luke turned towards me, "Yeah?"

"Who are they?" I asked, trying not to sound uncomfortable.

"Oh yeah." Luke stood up.

What is he doing?

"As you guys know this is Alaina, Alaina this is Calum, Ashton, and Michael." Luke pointed towards each boy.

"I forgot she can't remember us." I heard the Michael guy whisper to Calum.

"Shut up, she can hear you. Fucking idiot." Calum whispered in a firm tone.

I get that the Michael guy didn't mean anything by what he said, but for some reason it made me feel really bad.

It sucks that I can't remember people that are apart of my life. For all I know, they could be some of the most important people in my life and I don't even remember them. I try to convince everyone that me losing my memory isn't that big of a deal, but it really is. Like I missed a lot of my "first time" things in my life. Like my first period. I know it's weird, but I wish that I could remember my first period. It was one of my big "first time" experiences. A girl's first period is her way of showing that she is a woman and is no longer a little girl. And I missed that big event in my life. Like who helped? Where was I?

I just wish I could remember...

I didn't even notice that I had tears forming in my eyes.

I got up, immediately, to find the bathroom, in hopes that none of the boys noticed the tears falling down.

I searched the house, but couldn't figure out where the bathroom was. The only place I knew in the house was Luke's room, so that's where I went.

After about 15 minutes of just sitting in Luke's room I had calmed myself down and decided to just sit on his bed for a while to make sure I wouldn't bust out in tears again.

Luke's bedroom door creaked open.

"Alaina?" I looked up from my hands to see Luke closing the door behind him.

"Are you okay? I thought you went to the bathroom, but you didn't come back so I just wanted to make sure you were okay." Luke sat down beside me.

"I'm fine." I said, trying to hide how broken I really was. I started to twirl some strands of hair in between my fingers.

"Are you sure?" Luke pushed on.

"Yeah, everything's fine. I just wanted to walk around for a while and I just happened to see your room." I continued to twirl strands of my hair.

"Alaina, don't lie to me. You may have lost your memory, but I didn't lose mine. I know that when you start to lie about something you twirl your hair." Luke motioned towards my fingers that were still twirling my hair. I forced myself to stop.

"It's just that, I miss everything. Even though I don't remember it, I miss it. I missed so many experiences. I act like I'm not bothered about not remembering anything, but honestly it's frustrating not being able to remember experiences or events or people." I said, tears started to form in my eyes.

I covered my face with my hands because I was just so embarrassed. I looked so weak in front of Luke. I hated being weak.

Luke grabbed both of my hands and took them in his.

"Listen Alaina, it's fine to not be okay with not remembering. Anybody would feel horrible for not being able to remember a majority of their life. So if you want to cry then fuck it and cry. And I know I've said this a thousand times, but I truly am sorry about what happened. I never meant to hurt you." Luke said, looking straight into my eyes.

"And think of it this way, you can have a second chance on all of those first experiences. If it didn't turn out the way you liked the first time then you get another chance to make it right. Many people don't get that opportunity." Luke finished saying. He took the pad of his thumb and wiped the tears off of my cheeks.

"I won't be able to redo everything for the first time, like having my first period." I have no idea why I said that, but the moment I did I was so embarrassed.

Luke started to laugh.

"Don't laugh! I'm serious, Luke." I punched his arm.

Luke just continued to laugh.

After about 10 minutes Luke stopped his laughing fit and sat up.

"You punch hard."

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I ACTUALLY REALLY LOVE THIS CHAPTER GUYS AND I HOPE YOU DO TOO! AND I WAS WONDERING IF I SHOULD DO A CHRISTMAS CHAPTER SINCE CHRISTMAS IS COMING UP? WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK? SHOULD I? ANYWAYS PLEASE VOTE AND CHECK OUT MY OTHER STORY CALLED MIXTAPES.