amnesia // l.h. (DISCONTINUED)

➳Chapter 6

➳Alaina's POV

I ran out of the park and away from Luke. I heard him calling my name as I continued to sprint away.

I'm not even sure why I ran away. It's just I can't take anymore surprises. I mean I knew me and Luke had to be close before the accident, but I didn't expect that.

I could feel tears running down my cheeks. I feel like I am going crazy. I feel like my whole world is falling apart.

I looked around my surroundings.

What was I thinking running away? I don't even know the way back to my house from here.

I don't even know where I am.

It was getting darker and darker out, I'm guessing it's almost 5 o'clock.

There was a group of middle aged men standing by an alleyway. They all stared at me as I got closer.

Something just didn't feel right about them, so I walked to the other side of the street. I walked off the pavement, of the road, and onto the sidewalk.

"Hey!" Someone yelled, I looked at the middle aged men. They were all staring at me, still.

I thought it was one of the men that yelled at me, until I saw a familiar car drive alongside the sidewalk.

I looked into the car to see it was Luke who had yelled at me.

"Get in, Alaina."

"Luke, I just need some air right now. Please just leave." I said, with tears still dropping down.

"You don't even know how to get home. Just get in the car. We don't even have to talk, if you don't want to."

"Fine."

I got into the car.

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We continued to ride home in silence.

"Alaina, are you okay?" Luke broke the silence.

"You said we didn't have to talk." I said, looking out the window.

"I know, but you can't bottle up everything. You have to let it out at some point. Just please talk to me." Luke pleaded.

"Do you seriously want to know how I feel?" I asked.

"Well, ye-"

I cut off Luke, "I feel like absolute shit. I can't remember anything, and that hurts so much. I feel like, me not being able to remember anything, is disappointing to my parents and disappointing to you."

"You aren't disappointing, Alaina." Luke broke in.

We pulled into my driveway, but I didn't get out of the car.

"Really, Luke? Because I saw your face whenever I said I didn't remember the jar, we made. I saw your face drain from all of it's hope whenever I said I didn't remember you in the hospital. I'm not a fucking idiot. It seems like all I've done since the accident, was disappoint everyone around me. And I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry, I can't remember how we used to be. I'm sorry, I keep disappointing you, but you don't know how hard this is. I am trying my best to remember everything just to please everybody, but I keep failing. I just don't know anything about the person I was before the accident."

Before Luke could say anything, I got out of the car and walked towards my house.

"Alaina, just wait!" Luke called.

I sighed and turned around to see him getting out of his car.

"Please, just read this." He said, taking out some folded paper from his pocket and putting it into my hand.

Then he got into his car and drove away.

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I went up to my room and put the folded paper that Luke gave me, onto my dresser.

Then I grabbed some pajama shirts and a tank top, and turned on the water for the shower.

I took of my dirty clothes as got into the shower.

I tried my best to forget everything that happened today.

I mean I had a great day with Luke today, but I wish that I could go back and change my mind about asking Luke what we were before everything.

I got out of the shower and got dressed.

I grabbed the folded paper Luke had given me and opened it up to find it was some sort of letter.

Dear Alaina,