amnesia // l.h. (DISCONTINUED)

➳ Chapter 19

➳ Alaina's POV

I had just gotten to Luke's house, but I was debating whether to talk to Luke about the way I feel or not.

I thought that I would, but once I got here everything inside of me just froze. I just got suddenly scared. What if he doesn't even care about me anymore?

I was just about to turn around when I got a text. It was Alice.

Have you gotten to tell Luke yet?

I didn't reply back because I'm not so sure this was a good idea. I may just be having feelings for Luke because of the kiss. Maybe the kiss just felt special because I had forgotten how it felt to be kissed.

Or maybe I really do have strong feelings for Luke.

I'm just going to tell him.

I took all the courage within me and knocked on Luke's door. Luke's mother opened up the door.

"Is Luke home?" I asked.

"He actually left about an hour ago." She replied.

"Do you know anywhere that I could find him? It's really important." I was starting to fidget around.

"I think he went to meet someone at the park."

"Thank you, hope you have a good day." I replied turning around.

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I arrived at the park and started to look around for Luke. I was just about to give up looking for him, but then I saw a tall blonde boy walking up ahead of me.

He wasn't alone.

Luke was with a girl with long blonde hair.

I didn't want Luke to see me, so I just followed them around for a bit.

As they walked Luke kept holding her hand.

I'll admit it really hurt me to see Luke with someone else.

Luke and the mystery girl walked out of the park, I still followed behind.

I know I probably shouldn't be spying, but I just couldn't help it.

I continued to follow them. They arrived at the treehouse that Luke had brung me to.

Luke and the girl went into the treehouse. I didn't follow, but just waited alone outside.

After about 15 minutes of waiting for them to come back out of the treehouse, I creeped up the treehouse and peeked into one of the windows.

I stayed as quiet as I could while looking through the window.

Then I saw what they were doing.

Luke had his shirt off and was currently peeling off the girl's jeans. Once the jeans were off Luke started to leave lovebites down the girl's neck.

I didn't know what to do. My mind felt like it was spinning. Tears started to gather in my eyes.

I looked away and ran down the stairs of the treehouse, not caring if they found out I was there.

As I was at the bottom of the stairs the door of the treehouse opened up.

"Alaina?" Luke asked.

I didn't want to turn around, but I already knew that he knew it was me.

I continued to walk away.

"Wait, Alaina! It's not what it looks like!" Luke called out to me.

I was a mixture of emotions. I was sad, furious, lonely, hurt, and everything in between.

I turned around to see Luke was sliding the shirt back on himself and was running down towards me.

"Then what exactly was going on!?! How could you say it's not what it looks like!? You want to know what it looked like to me, it looked like you and that dumb bitch were about to fuck each other!" I yelled. I was furious at this point. How could he sit there and tell me "it's not what it looks like"?

"Alaina just listen to me. I was jus-"

I interrupted Luke, "No you listen to me! You're a fucking liar, Luke! You told me that you cared for me and wouldn't ever let me get hurt! But you're doing the exact opposite!"

Luke's face dropped, "I know. I know that sorry isn't going to fix anything, but please just let me explain." Luke's voice was quite and barely audible.

I crossed my arms over my chest waiting for him to continue.

"I know I fucked up, I know it. I was just lonely and I know that's not an excuse, but you don't understand. I have to sit here and watch the girl that I love go out with another guy after I ruined her life by making her forget everything she knew. It's hard knowing I'm the cause." Luke had tears in his eyes.

I was by now already crying because of the hurt I was feeling.

"That's not an excuse, Luke." I had calmed down a little bit.

"I know it's not. It's just that she was how I was starting to get over you and I thought I needed her to get over the kiss we shared." Luke admitted.

"Why would you want to forget the kiss?" I asked.

"Because I thought if I forgot about the kiss then I could forget the feelings I have for you and forget that you don't feel the same as I do."

"But Luke, that kiss was the reason I was looking for you." I grabbed Luke's hand and pulled him away so the girl couldn't hear us anymore.

"Luke, I like you. Not just like you like a friend, but I like you more than as a friend." I said with a small smile.

"Wait, are you saying what I think you're saying?" Luke asked. I stopped the tears from forming in my eyes and a smile started to form on my face.

"Yes, Luke. The only thing is now I don't know why to do because I just caught you about to fuck someone." I threw my hands up in the air out of frustration.

Luke grabbed my hands, "Let me make it up to you please."

Luke looked so helpless right now, he had red puffy eyes because of his crying and his nose started to run. His hair was messy, but that wasn't because of his crying. I couldn't help, but feel bad for him.

"Fine."

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