Broken Enigma (on hold)

Chapter ~ 4

Dillion Scott || Love Sick

Werewolves don't get sick, well at at least not like humans. Our immune systems are around twenty times stronger then any human and what we are susceptible to contracting is a very small list. It's a proven fact, that us wolves can't get the flu or the common cold, even hay fever is incredibly rare for a wolf. That being said, a sick werewolf isn't unheard of, we might be stronger but we are not invincible.

Migraines are somewhat common for a wolf, specially for newly shifted wolves, though it's more of sensory overload then the traditional human migraine.  I don't know where my current migraine came from, but it was persistent and not going away. It's been a week since the red moon festival and I've been cooped up in my blacked out bedroom for the past two days, ear plugs stuffed in my ears making everything muffled. I mostly slept, though weirdly enough the more I slept the sleeper I become. My time alone really didn't do me any favours, my mind was mostly on Elias. I've gone through fazes with how much I care about finding my mate but it was never to point that I would basically ignore them if I met them. How is this going to play out? Is this a form of rejecting?

Rejecting your mate is extremely dangerous, in that there is a chance that your wolf (and the wolf of your rejected mate) could die, which is incredibly painful. A part of your self is dying out of heart break, along with that If your wolf dies there is a high chance you are kicked out of your pack. I've got my doubts that any alpha would risk their authority or the safety of their own pack with rejecting their mate. Sometimes the moon goddess gives a second chances but they are very rare, you have to be a special kind of someone to receive a second mate.

Elias, of what I heard over the years is that he might be heartless to outsiders but he takes care of his pack. Though no one really knows the fine details but it's somewhat common knowledge that he was a decent alpha. Which I'm not going to doubt, I just hope that some of that decency drips down into being a decent mate.

I'm not exactly sure how to navigate the situation. If it stays like this, just ignoring the fact that we are mates and never speak, It's going to be a long and incomplete life for the both of us. How would I go about telling my family? Rejecting your mate is looked down upon, not rejecting but just choosing not to be with them, I'd assume it wont go down any better.

Why of all people do I get the one person who doesn't want a mate? Is the fact we are both men a reason he doesn't want to be around me? It's not common for alphas to get mated to the same sex cause alphas need an heir, but gay wolves and mate pairings is as common just like in normal humans. It's almost a little bit more accepted same sex mates cause we can't choose our mates so the whole argument of it 'being a faze' or 'it's a choice' is more or less invalid.

By the next day I was as good as new, so I lived my life as normal. To the world I never found my mate, I was still single, the meeting between me and Elias Sallow was something of a fluke. I distracted my self with my tracker training, putting in all my energy into it. I ignored the growing hollow feeling in my chest, or my ever increasing thoughts about Elias and why he doesn't want me. I know he doesn't want a mate in general but my mind decided to be a bit more self deprecating then that and blame it on me. I'm assuming these feelings are more so my wolf, wanting his mate.

Apart from my internal battles everything seemed to go back to normal that was until I coughed up blood. Though unusual and probably a sign I should go to pack doctor, I didn't. Cause I'm an idiot. I basically forgot about it cause it wasn't until another week when I was in tracking class that my wolf  collapse out of nowhere, which had me waking up in the medical ward where I once again coughed up blood.