The unspoken emotions

Heart won over mind

So second week of msk began and by this time Sid while watching msk noticed her swollen eyes every morning and that sadness on her face . He felt something is wrong with her for sure n felt restless but couldn't do anything . His helplessness was making him weak day by day n his only hope was the meeting next week as soon as she comes out of the house . Week passed like this by this time even audience also realized that Sana's heart was not in the show but she is doing it as she had to return the favour that colors has done for her. Then the day came Sid was all set just then Sana's manager called up to inform that she has headache and a bad one so meeting can't happen today Sid out of impatience and frustration messaged her " how unprofessional of u to cancel a meeting at last minute and not making an effort ! Headache hi hai u should hv taken medicine and came mar to nahi Rahi thi "
Tears welled up in her eyes reading this . Actually it was not just headache she had high fever too as she didn't take proper rest since days and she was under tremendous stress as she cannot even share her feelings with anybody and she couldn't trouble baaz due to her one sided affection as all would have asked her to
Move on ! But that was out of question for sana as she cannot be fake she truly loves Sid n thought now she need to spend her life like this only !
Sana post reading msg didn't even reply and was sad to
No end and in this state she fainted in her room after two hours baaz came to check on her but when she didn't open he called hotel security and was shocked to see sana lying on the floor unconscious he immediately rushed her to nearby hospital .
Baaz was worried like hell for her she stayed in the hospital whole night . Doc informed baaz that she is extremely weak and intensely stressed if she continues to ignore her health then she might get into serious trouble and advised him for a psychiatric consultation too . Baaz was shocked to hear all this and cursing himself to no end as he failed in standing by her and taking care of her . Just then bagga came .
Bagga somewhere had an idea that it's all happening bcoz of Sid but she also had a impression of Sid that he doesn't care and it's affecting sana . So she decided to take her out with her to change her mood . She got discharged from the hospital in the morning .
Bagga scolded her to Noend for not taking care of herself. She didn't confront her because she respects her space .
So she told her that " we are going shopping today as I am bored of seeing you dressed in traditional wear all the time " Sana couldn't refuse Bagga as she truly consider her as a friend . They both went out shopping and Bagga posted pics on her social handle and they went viral . Sid also saw and thought that she is unwell to meet him even professionally but enjoying with her friends .
So he also decided to go to party with his friends it was hotel inauguration of his best friend Kushal All his friends were coming
including Vishal .
Sana entered back in house by then but still lifeless. Sid went out to Kushal's place to party there he met Vikas also . Vikas through Bagga knew that sana was hospitalised and was extremely unwell .
Vikas met Sid and asked him whether he is in touch with sana or not to which Sid sarcastically replied " she is a big star now bhai wo kyu milegi mujhse " Vikas on the other hand was shocked to hear this as Bagga told that it's all because of sids changed behaviour and his rudeness towards sana !
Vikas senses the misunderstanding at both ends but he didn't want to confront Sid either.
So he said " hmmm badi star to ho gayi hai wo but success comes at a price bechaari she is over working due to which fell sick " to which Sid replied " all her tantrums who knows it better than me , success ser me chad Gaya hai having only headache is not falling sick please " Vikas was surprised to see sids insensitivity but he knew that he is equally hurt . So he sized him down stating " Really Sid , headache ke liye logon ko hospitalise karana padta hai kya !"
Ground slipped under Sid's feet hearing this and he shouted "What ?" All shocked and baffled . "When was she hospitalised ? Why nobody informed me ? Why is she still
continuing shooting ? Why didn't she call me once ? "
He held Vikas arms tightly saying all this , Vikas could understand the turmoil of emotions going inside Sid so he hugged him tight and told him to calm down .
He told him she is ok now n better !
Then Sid suddenly remembered his last message to her and cursed himself for being extremely rude to her . He realised that knowing she had headache instead of showing concern he taunted her how on earth does he expect her to reach out to him.
He realised that in the urge of ensuring her good he ended up losing her even as a friend and left her in bad times and hurt her so much and proved everyone else right who once said that it's all for the game n he has no feelings for her .
He was shattered and tears started flowing from his eyes , Vikas witnessed his selfless love for her but he knew that he will never confess as well. Vikas told him that he shouldn't worry much as she is ok now and go home n take rest !
Reaching home , Sid was visibly stressed and broken seeing this his mom asked "what happened Sid u don't look fine ! " Hiding his feelings he simply replied putting up a fake smile " nothing much just tired mom going to bed" wished goodnight to his mom and went to his room .
He laid on his bed as lifeless as one could be . He thought that's what he really wanted that sana khud ko sambhaalna seekh jaye uske bina rehna seekh jaaye fir wo kyu nahi samjha paa raha khud ko. Aur Bagga uske mujhse bhi jyada close ho gayi aur baaz ne kyu call nahi kiya ! He slept having all these thoughts running in his mind ..