The unspoken emotions

Taken for granted

As lockdown also eased a bit so their full time help was home to cook for them
Sid came out in the morning for breakfast but sana was missing he asked the help " where is mam ?" She replied " mam is not hungry n told me not to make breakfast for her "
Sid in mind " uff again drama I am not going to give in as it's her mistake "
While Sid was having breakfast doorbell rang and before he could get up to open the door
He saw sana coming out all dressed up and wearing mask n gloves and opened the door
It was her manager she greeted him and turned to tell Sid formality sake " I am stepping out for some work will be bk by evening "
Although she did make up but sadness in her eyes and swelling due to excessive crying was visible and sid felt bad looking at her like that
He immediately blurted out " u r not going anywhere without me as I know how careless u r "
Sana fumed listening to this as she was already in anger due to his harsh words last nite she replied sternly " so far I guess I have tAken care of myself alone only so this comment is completely baseless n unwanted n my manager is there so relax i am not a child "
Sid just didn't respond then as he wS also in attitude and didn't wAnt to create scene in front of manager so he just turned bk blurting " do whatever u want "
But inside was worried for her so just added "come bk on time n be safe "
She went out to see few flats on rent along with shehbaaz she would hv loved to inform that shehbaaz is accompanying to ease out sids worry but intentionally didn't
As she was equally stubborn and wanted to
move out as soon as possible she finalised a fully furnished flat at around a distance of two hours from his place
The flat will be ready in 15 days post sanitisation n all so she told shehbaaz to look after n get it done she paid as advance too
By the evening she came back but she didn't feel like having anything whole day both were in full ignorance mode and pretending to be strong n unaffected by each other she just went to her room freshens up and as tired just lied down on her bed (guest room one )n slept in no time Sid asked the help to knock at her door
But she came bk saying there is no response Sid just couldn't put up the act anymore m rushed to open the door to find sana sleeping peacefully her innocence n charm always attracts him to no end
He went close to her and caress his forehead to find that she had very high fever
He immediately called help to get ice and towel and started putting cold towel on her head to bring down temperature and called his family doctor
He tried to wake her up " shehnaaz ! Shehnaaz! "
She was almost unconscious and couldn't even open her eyes she just could utter " hmmm" in that weak state
Sid patted on her cheek lightly " shehnaaz kuch khaya tumne ! Utho kuch kha lo ! "
Inside sid was feeling guilty to be so harsh on her when he already knows how much his ignorance affects her
He had tears brimming in his eyes n one droplet fell on Sana's cheek making her open her eyes she gathered some strength to just say " relax I am fine" leading to Sid yelling " Haan wo to dikh hi raha hai that's why
I call u careless but main bhi kisko samjha raha hu " and tears started flowing from her eyes she turned to other side and started crying very badly and sid realised how vulnerable she is right now and he has to be soft .
He goes to other side sit next to her and take her in his arms and just hugged her tight without saying something for few minutes and then he softly starts licking her hot lips to suck away all pain n fever and smooched her thoroughly taking away all her worries n pain
She didn't reciprocated at all but still gives in herself into the moment surrendering to his care n warmth which she needed the most . Help knocked the door n bring in soup
Sid adjusts pillows to make her sit with support and lovingly feeds her soup by that time doc arrives and he steps aside so that doc can check her post examining doc declared she didn't eat whole day n the evening before which led to this extreme weakness and she stretched herself to roam around in Sun whole day leading to this condition he gave some Medicines advising her to intake lot of fluids n take rest for next three days Sid ordered medicines online n see off doc !
Sid came bk to her n held her hand while caressing her forehead with other hand she could feel his love in his touch but still her stubbornness n ego was not letting her mellow down . Seeing her cold behaviour towards him Sid started speaking " see sana I am sorry u know I didn't mean anything that I said I just get worried about u as I need to protect u u r new to this industry I hv been here for a decent time now to understand better how things work here not that I haven't faulted but why do u want to repeat my mistakes n then learn when I already hv that wisdom can I request u something please "
She was feeling that same old wisdom but that doesn't mean he can just be mean to me just like that anyhow she just nodded
Sid continued " please don't make any video in here at my place we will go out somewhere to shoot videos if u r hell bent on being social"
Sana replied back in attitude  " ok I got it will abide by"
Her cut to cut reply gave him an idea that she is still upset n didn't forgive him but he thought that she might be annoyed but will be ok with time
But our darling is no easy person to live with n love !
Next day sana was supposed to finalise changes in decor n interiors to her taste in her flat but she forgot in all this !
She was highly intoxicated due to strong antibiotics n Sid put her phone on silent he was just lying next to her n admiring her when her phone flashed he got up to see as shehbaaz was calling he picked up saying " hello chote Kaise hai Sana is sleeping " shehbaaz replied shocked " Sleeping ?? How can she mera jeena haraam kar rakha hai ki flat jaldi chahiye " Sid thought she might be doing it for shehbaaz so he replied " tu apne hisaab se Kara le " shehbaaz responded " arrey use rehna hai to sab uske hisaab se hoga aur sirf 15 din hi diye hain madam ne haalat khraab hai I am going crazy running pillar to post "
Sid was shocked n his heart shattered with the thought of her being not in front of his eyes
Kullu wanted her Moti to be around forever
But then he realised its due to his mean behaviour she is  reacting in this manner
N he almost shat in his pants with the thought of she ignoring him
N going away as he can not afford to loose her at any cost he got worked up that he need to do something urgently
Shehbaaz was yelling sidhaaarth on the line as he went blank n quite
He got hold of himself and told him " nothing to be done she is not shifting ok chote " shehbaaz responded " but she has already paid the advance and owner will take her word as final only so please ask her to call the owner if she has changed her mind "
Sid responded " ok will get it done u put rest of the things on hold for now "
He told " great ok as u say"
Call got disconnected now Kullu is thinking how to face the Sherawali mata post his maha apraadh of annoying her n demeaning her !