The unspoken emotions

Craving for more attention

As Sana was content with Sid's expression of how much he craves for her
She started expecting more from him
Sid's mom decided to leave them alone for some time so that they get to know each other more so she moved to his sisters place for few days as his Jiju was traveling out
Sid was as usual busy watching news while cuddling sana who was sitting between his legs on the bed
Just then he got a call from kushaal his close friend after usual hi hello he mentioned how his fans crave for his one glimpse and how he being private leaves them disappointed and told him to chk twitter at least and learn insta too he advised why not he takes help from shehnaaz as he is staying with him only to which he replied who told u so as he hasn't disclosed it to anyone except family anyhow he decided to take out some time to go on Twitter after some time n disconnected the call
Shehnaaz who was overhearing this had an idea about it so looking at Sid n he was worried
Sana - relax baby people will assume whatever they want to we cannot stop them from doing so
Sid still lost in his thoughts
Sana - r u listening Sid
He just nodded saying "hmmm" but shukla Ji being shukla Ji started all
His calculations n logic in his mind
Shehnaaz seeing him like this and encouraged by his gesture yesterday decided to go extra mile to get him in mood and cheer him up
So she excused herself saying she needs to catch up on his social media with her fans
Sid immediately switched off his tv and get on Twitter as he got his space as he didn't want to share his anxiety n worry to sana
He browsed through few threads and read all sort of negativity about her from people blaming her to be opportunist , worthless,taking shortcut and advantage of him etc etc...
And he found out how people were matching backgrounds and reaching to such conclusions n this was the thing thT he wanted to avoid and protect her from as he has been in the industry for almost 10 years n knew how these things affect someone's name n fame
He got worked and was annoyed with her for not being careful
One of comments called her "slut" which led to him loosing control and his anger took over he threw his phone aside on the bed itself
On the other hand , Sana decided to get all decked up in a navy blue chiffon saree complimenting her milky white skin and tied in a manner accentuating her curves at right places and she tied the skirt little lower on her naval to make him loose control n be go went gone after seeing her
She wore a sleeveless silver blouse which was hardly covering her bosom
She was looking like " the woman any man can die for just by looking once at her"
She did nude make up just the way he likes it and wore silver metal bangles and anklets along with ethnic silver waist band
She was looking no less than a goddess
She knocks on the door and Sid was standing in the balcony smoking a cigarette
She knocked again but he didn't listen as he was out so she entered and was disappointed to not find him in his room but still excited enough to drive him crazy
She was little taken aback to find him smoking in the balcony
She marched out forgetting her original plan and shouted " Sid tu fir smoke kar raha hai u promised u will not do it "
(guys disclaimer : we all know Sid spits venom when angry)
He without even turning n looking at her and in full anger replied " Haan to kya karu tujh jaisi jo palle pad gayi hai ek number ki gadhi bewakoof and self obsessed woman self centered only think about herself and her entertainment BB house me bhi yahi kerti thi I still wonder how I tolerated u so far !
Completely senseless just like ur talks hadd hai  bachpane ki how many times do I need to tell u that I am private person n don't want my personal life at display but tumhe kya tum raho social jo mann me aaye wo Karo I cant live with it anymore it's so irritating "
He turned in full anger and held her by her arms and shouted " Tujhey idea Bhi hai how your childish behaviour embarrasses  n hurt my reputation , ridiculous u r"
Just then he suddenly realised how she is all dressed up n looking so irresistible and her eyes full of tears ready to overflow and pain n hurt clearly visible in her eyes
She looked into his eyes for few moments as if looking for some thing but then she jerked his hands off her arms and ran bk to her room and collapsed on her bed resulting into a tearful and painful mess tears were continuously flowing from her eyes as she was
devastated to see all her fears coming true and  also her insecurities thT how could god be that kind to her how she is so lucky suddenly to hard to believe n sid as if stamped her literally " worthless and non deserving to be with him "
She felt like she got a tight slap on her face just to be woken up from a sweet dream she was living in and it was all a Myth n now she has been brutally made to face the bitter truth !
She wept more thinking how she wanted to give a memorable start to the new beginning n just then reality strikes her so hard that she is completely shattered N her pure heart broken into innumerable small pieces
She already had these fears haunting her for long
Her make up ruined by crying so much
Here Sid was standing stunned n blank not able to figure out whT series of events have turned like
Cursing himself why he cannot control his anger he could help her understand with love also
Why he repeated the same mistake again and was feeling more guilty looking at how she put efforts to woo him and he ruined it all in his anger
N how he hurts her more than he love her
But jaaye to kis muh se as he has again criticized her n put her down so harshly with his venomous words which he has no control on while angry
He just sat down there in balcony only putting his head in between his knees not knowing what to do !
Tears flowing from his eyes too but still somewhere he was consoling himself saying she is at fault also n needs to understand few things in harsh manner but he knew somewhere in his heart that he went really overboard !
But still due to his ego made himself understand that let her be for the time being n will talk to her once she realises her mistake n comes to manaofy him as she cannot stay away from him for long !
Big mistake Shukla Ji : taking Sana for granted
Bhagwaan hi Malik hai ab Aapka : god bless u ..,,,