The unspoken emotions

Scared like hell !

Next morning both of them woke up with door bell it was shehbaaz Sid opened the door sana was still too weak to get up !
Shehbaaz was shocked to see sana like this and immediately engulfed her into a tight hug asking " tu theek Haan? Ki Hoya ? Yeh dwaaiyaan Tera face ? " he looked towards Sid with questioning eyes and confused expressions . Sid just told him that "she got pneumonia and is really unwell." Doc advised medicines and two three days rest I hv informed production to manage one day shoot as any which today and tomorrow is her off.
Shehbaaz was upset and told Sid " why didn't u inform me?" Sid told I thought I can manage and it's just the matter on one night  to which shehbaaz immediately replied " what the hell nothing is more important for me than sana"
Didn't say much to Sid out of respect but sid out of guilt said " Sorry bro will take care in future" Just then Sana told baaz that " shehbaaz I don't want to stay here post msk is over I like it better in Punjab let's prepare to go back I don't belong to Mumbai "
Sid was shit scared and shocked to hear that and shehbaaz was staring at Sid hearing the same from sana . Could figure out something has happened between them .
But for now he needs to take care of his lifeline his sister !
He told her " Don't worry about anything I am there na and we will do whatever u want and wish to do , I will stand with you n by you forever my motto"
This is the assurance she needed from Sid who not only disappointed her but hurt her also by judging her (that's what she thought )
She was hugging shehbaaz tightly and crying silently shehbaaz was rubbing her back gently to comfort her !
Sid was feeling as miserable as her!
Sid told shehbaaz that he got some work aligned so will come bk in the evening and asked him to take care of her as Sana was not even looking at him and he was not able to bear this ignorance.so he left turning back and hoping to have eye contact with her but she didn't budge as was too broken !
Sana went bk to sleep she was still weak and her body was aching , her pain was not bearable and she faced other side and was continuously sobbing , she asked shehbaaz to go n take rest in his room as he also must be tired she will call whenever she needs him . Shehbaaz understood and left her in her space . She cried her heart out digging her face in the pillow !
Sid still feeling restless with the thought of loosing her forever even as a friend couldn't focus much on work . He also anticipated that sana doesn't even care for her career above him and he is such a jerk to hurt her and behave so bad with her due to his own insecurities . He was thinking what if she leaves Mumbai forever he smoked around 20 25 times in last two hours . Suddenly he got a call from sanas manager and indie music label producer they wanted to discuss a mv together for sidnaaz . He called them immediately heard the song once and told them they can consider a yes from sana also . Now next task at hand was to undo the damage and confess his insecurities and fears to her to win her back . He knew it's not gonna be easy but determined to pursue her.
He drove back to hotel it was afternoon only n as he already had master key to her room opened the door scaring sana she was still sobbing she screamed " kaun hai " but then seeing Sid she turned her face in opposite direction.
The Sid that entered into the room and Infact in his life is different he has overcome his Insecurities and fears and ready to accept his faults and ready to surrender himself in front of his princess his angel .
He jumped on the bed and hugged her tight from behind sana gave no response and was just quite she didn't even fight bk . Seeing this Sid started " Sorry shehnaaz ! Main ek number ka gadha hu paagal hu aur awal darze ka idiot hu gusse me mujhey kuch samajh hi nahi aata aur tujhe hurt kerne k chakkar me apna hi band bajja leta hu , but tu to mujhey mujhse bhi jyaada ache se jaanti hai na " taking a pause expecting a response but sana kept quite , seeing this he continued " apney kullu ki nadaniyaan maaf nahi karegi , Main Tera puttu hu na dekh tere bina main fir se wahi khadoos Sid ban jaunga tu chahti hai Aisa ho agar Haan to bol . Ek baar bol still no response matlab tu chahti hai yeh hmmm "
He turned her towards himself now facing him but she was not meeting his eyes and was crying he wipes her tears and held her face in his big palms making her look into his eyes and he could feel the pain n hurt in her eyes. She closed her eyes unable to face him.He kissed on her eyes and then her forehead and then her cheeks and then he moved to her lips and starting kissing away all the pain from her with so much passion n love she first resisted but later gave in but didn't give access to her mouth neither he attempted ! He kissed her continuously for 15 min to calm the storms inside her ! She just surrendered herself to him  ! Although he didn't want to but softly broke the kiss to catch on his breath and placed a soft peck on his lips , held her close so that his lips still brushing his , Sana in this vulnerable state just closed her eyes and tears still flowing out this time kissed away her tears from her cheeks . Responding to this sana hugged him tightly Sid starts speaking again holding her tight in a hug and starting whispering in her ear " I am sorry baby I didn't mean what I said . I thought that I don't deserve u May act as an obstruction to your success and also it's just beginning for your career I have had my share of affairs and then age gap is also there then I got insecure about hundred other things and thought it would be good that we stay as friends only but still couldn't control my feelings for u when u got close . I was actually angry with myself but I threw all my anger on you and I am really sorry that I hurt u so badly in all this . But u made me realise how much u mean to me I cannot stay away from you . Mera bas chale to main tujhey ek second ke liye bhi khud se door na honey du please open your eyes as it's long that I have seen unconditional unfiltered love for myself in those deep eyes of yours . "With this she opened her eyes and looked into his eyes . He held his ears with his hands and said " I am really sorry can I have my smiling beauty back please " in response to this " she smiled a bit " Sid told " no no no not there yet I am sure Tum issey behtar kar sakti ho " and in an instance they both burst out in laughter .
Now sana back in form started " par main Bahut hurt ho gayi thi aur Agli baar maine sach me chale jaana hai samjha "
Sid told " acha aisey Kaise maine na tujhe ghar se chakk laana hai samjhi"
Sana -" haaye Sachi kha kasam "
Sid -" but u need to promise that for rest of the world including shehbaaz we are just friends ok and I also hv a surprise for u "
Sana nodded in a yes understanding still Sid explained further " see sana the outer world is really mean n harsh n they will judge u every now n then some things are better unspoken and when time comes we will acknowledge if all stays good ! Kahin tujhe mujhse handsome Banda Mil Gaya aur Tera mann Badal Gaya to "teasing her . Sana screamed " sidhaaarth dekh le tu fir ulti seedhi baatein kar raha hai mujhey nahi chahiye koi aur tere alawa Haan tujhey koi aur sophisticated sensible babe Mil jaayegi to please bata dena fir main peechey hatt jaungi " Sid got upset listening to this and made faces " really ! Pakka " to which Sana held his ear and told " muh todd dungi uska aur Tera bhi !"
Sid - " ab lag Rahi hai meri punjaab ki sherni "  and hugged her and kissed her on her cheeks holding her close like he did on her bday remember . Putting his strong arms around her neck and kissing hard on her cheeks.
Sid - " ab jaldi se theek ho jaa fir surprise bhi to dena hai tujhey "
Sana -"hmmm"
They both held each other and lied on bed next to each other and slept for some time with peace in their hearts and mind !
May god keep all evil eyes away from their happiness !
Stay blessed my love birds !