The unspoken emotions

One sided trust

Sana - " hmm I am lucky to have someone like meeti as my only best friend bcoz she is the one I trust blindly "
Sid -" yeah I don't know but I hv never been able to get that friend that I can trust blindly friends to Bahut hai but no one absolutely no one falls in that category "
Sana in her heart was disappointed n thinks so he doesn't trust me completely either
She wanted to push it little more for her own self and continued " ek baat puchu Sid u never discussed or spoke to me about your life like ur childhood ur friends ur life so far but with aarti Shefali even asim for that matter why is so"
Sids expression changed as if she has caught him unguarded n he knew he cannot lie to her as she is smart enough to make out thT
Sid - not meeting her eye uttered in a rush " because u got no filters u blurt out whatever comes to ur mind even about ur family n ur self   I am a private person so cant take risk "
Sana " hmmm but u still spoke to other people on national tv n wanted to know each n everything about me even about my ex "
" Anyways I got ur point let's keep it this way I am Gadhi anyway as u refer to me as rightly might hv embarrassed u like I embarrassed my family and I was in misconception that u like me like this " her heart broke into million pieces while she spoke these words she left for kitchen before she couldn't control her tears to flow out of her eyes ...
Sid was thinking " shit yaar I don't know how to make her understand she is again hurt now I wish I could stop her from watching bb episodes "
He went behind her in the kitchen where sana was doing preparation for dinner
Sid came after checking on his mom who was taking rest in her room and settled himself on counter , pulled sana towards him pulling his legs apart to make space for her to fit n  hugged her closely nuzzling into her neckline making her anger melt a bit he whispered "gussa hai meri jaan!"
Sana looked up meeting his eye " nahi bilkul nahi main khush hu ki tuney mujhey honest answer diya n I acknowledge n understand where u r coming from , u did what u thought is wise n right . It's ok n thanks for being honest "
Sid couldn't believe that her cutie pie has handled and accepted the bitter fact so maturely and gave her tight long hug almost crushing
But what he missed out was the unspoken unexpressed sadness in her calm voice n eyes which just wiped off few unstoppable tears that has just flown out but taken care of timely and loose hold of her hands while he hugged !
Sana in her mind " he is afraid to be embarrassed of her only quality that he claims to have fallen for and got attached to her ", how ironical is this reality
She acted normal n they all had dinner as usual and again proved meeti right she was just ignoring what her brain was telling
At night sana went to cuddle and sleep next to him but half heartedly as she didn't want to come across as someone who can't handle facts . She closed her eyes although her mind was running with 10 x speed overthinking his journey so far with him
In the morning , sid woke her up by cuddling her from behind and kissing her neck n cheeks multiple times saying " uth jaa princess I brought tea for u " she turned n hugged him tight forgetting all her heart ache and kissed him good morning on his cheek while pulling his other cheek with her hand .
N consoled herself that this hug is all she needs n this love n pampering to forget what her brain is telling her because humaari sana se to koi do ghadi pyaar se baat ker le to wo uske liye apni jaan de de !
The day proceeded n Sana became curious to know about his life and started surfing on Internet endlessly sitting next to him while he is watching news then excused herself saying she wants to sleep n moved to guest room which is her room for now put on head phones to listen to all his past interviews and concluded that she is no where near any of his exes as they were all sexy n stylish nor anyway near to his ideal life partner as stated by him in various interviews , one thought which is not leaving her mind was "Why he is with me!"
Is it one sided whatever they have n he is just being kind to her !
Marrying her is out of question that's why no mention
Why does he entertain me !
N Meeti once told her " sleeping with someone once doesn't make u fall in love or out of love , love is a feeling which makes u crave for more "
And actually they didn't get intimate with each other post their last drunken encounter which made her belief stronger that he doesn't feel the same for her as she feels for him
On the other hand this unusual behaviour of Sana didn't get unnoticed by Sid but he decided to give her space n time to figure out things herself !
But he was drastically wrong in leaving her to be at her own specially post making her feel so small n inferior as Sana has a delicate sensitive heart n keeps things inside when hurt by the person she loved the most even more than herself !
Sana wanted a break from everything but was stuck !