The unspoken emotions

Continuation to ch 11....

Sid came out and told her to get ready as he planned a dinner out cum meeting for both of them.
Sana replied " ok let's order lunch as she is damn hungry" Both ate together in one plate as usual !
Then Sid said " chal hug kerke sotey hain thodi der"
Sana was shocked hearing this and Sid chuckles at her expressions
And added " like bb house days aur kya what were u thinking ! "Teasing her " haww u r having gande gande thoughts" Sana throws a pillow on his face blurting " kuch bhi"
While sana was lying in his arms she was still thinking ki " why did Sid not mention anything or scold her for accepting her love for him on national tv !
Is it he also has some feelings for her or he is ignoring or may be didn't watch the show or didn't know about it but that's not possible as he is active on Twitter n there was lot of opinions on twitter on her confession  attracting positive and negative reaction from fans .
Sana being sana couldn't stop herself from seeking clarity So he asked Sid straight " sidhaaarth ! "
Sid - "Haan baby bol"
Sana - " tuney episode dekha tha jay wala I confessed my one sided love for you in front of the world tujhey bura to nahi laga"
Sid - taking a long pause and thinking deeply spoke " it's ok I respect your feelings shehnaaz but I think it's too early to say anything and there are worldly realities that are harsh which you may not have faced yet but even if I tell u to not speak about us tu maanegi to hai nahi tu wahi karegi aur kahegi jo tujhey lagta hai but that's what u r ,real without filters and seedhi baat no bakwaas ! I don't want to change u baby !
Sana got little sad listening to this so to change her mood and distract her a bit
Sid told  "Chal leave all this get ready we need to go out else we will get late "
Sana got dressed in a yellow off shoulder top and grey knee length skirt with yellow polka dots on it and was looking her best cutest self .
She snapped her fingers and told " tere kapde aa Gaye hain designer se shaam ki meeting ke liye ready ho jaa as I am ready "
Sid was still lost looking at her and moved close to her . He held her from waist and Sana's heartbeat got faster and he moved closer so close that she could feel his breath on her lips . She got all nervous , Sid in his sexy husky voice uttered sensuously " Shehnaaaz !" Sana all fumbling with closed eyes responded in low voice" hmmmm"
Sid in flirtatious tone and in same position smiled and told " jootey to pehen lo baby bare foot jaogi kya ! " and burst out with laughter and lied on the bed looking at her face .
Sana got annoyed because of this teasing act and making a cute face and acted angry saying " dar fitte muh tere ! Maine ni jaana kahi tere naal" knowing sana well Sid replied " chal na bey natak mat kar mazaak tha chill ker ! " and also it's a professional meeting so u don't hv a choice .
So they went to a Mediterranean restaurant (remember ) there they met mirchi award producer who told that they want them to perform together and need to start practice and rehearsals day after tomorrow which means sana could step out of the house after one day only , she was happy with the idea and so does Sid so they readily agreed.
The producer left post dinner as he had some commitment but sana wanted to stay there little longer as it was near sea shore and she loved the ambience "
Sid told sana " r u happy now you needn't spend whole week inside that house" to which Sana replied " I am happy that we will get to spend more time together"
To which Sid kept mum as his insecurities shouted loudly what if this is temporary what if she finds someone better what if she hurts herself not able to tolerate distance between them there were lot of ifs in his mind . The biggest of fear for him was will she be able to cope up with her normal day to day life in his absence as she is still a kid at heart and a stubborn one !
For testing all this in real terms he has to wait for her show to end.
Sana pulled his arm moving her chair closer breaking his chain of thoughts and thinking that she might be putting undue pressure on Sid to take out time for her and shouldn't become an obligation as he considers her his friend only . She told " I am sorry Sid if you felt bad I know I am stupid at times and in necessarily get you worried . I was just kidding I am staying in msk house without u naa so it's ok if u r not able to spend time with me we will adjust as per your schedule aur mere individual sequence bhi to hai I will practice them when u r not there , tu tension mat le Haan " aur " pair hilana band kar fir kahega smoke kerna hai "
These pure and innocent words of care from sana left him speechless and made his eyes moist . He responded " paagal hai tu and vaise bhi I am a pro when it comes to work ok !"
To which Sana naughtily smiled and murmured " haan who knows it better than me bb house me nahaane tak me to aafat aati thi aalasraam baat kerta hai "pro" my foot"
Sid asked " kuch kaha tumne " to which Sana sheepishly replied " nahi nothing " Sid told " come I will drop u to your hotel u take rest I need to go bk to msk house tomorrow."
He dropped her and went bk to his place in a jiffy as sids mom already called him twice for some work at home  !
Sana was still in her thoughts moved to her room she was thinking about sids wordings regarding outside world n somewhere thought that he doesn't trust her or may be she is not his level and he is a big star . N practically she can't be with him and tears started rolling on her cheeks without she realising it . She went inside her room and crashed into her bed still weeping and slept off .
Next morning she gets up n get ready for the shoot . Looking at mirror she told herself " Sana u r strong and u love yourself the most n u need to focus on your career ! Itna kaam kerna hai ki aur kuch sochne ka time hi na Miley " and her struggle of fighting with herself began again . She checked her phone last time before entering the house , there was 20 msgs and 10 missed calls from Sid asking her whether she reached hotel room safely to complaining of her being careless and not responsible enough to even revert !
She panicked seeing that n replied coldly " I am fine sorry phone was on silent getting late leaving for shoot"
Here sid was fuming in anger thinking " Milne do moti ko fir laguanga iski class"
He didn't respond and Sana got it that he is annoyed to the fullest aur ab manana padega jab milungi and told herself " haaye siyappa!"