The unspoken emotions

Out of control act

Early morning Sid in deep sleep slid his hand under her top and circled on her bare waist and Sana also in deep sleep felt his touch and as it was Sid so she didn't feel uncomfortable but found it very soothing and comforting . Sid thought its a dream and started moving his hand on her bare back exploring up until her shoulders which resulted in Sana moaning at a very low pitch and still fast asleep . Sid felt her up and could hear her moan which turned him
on more it went on for good 15 min and suddenly Sid opened his eyes to realise its not a dream but he is doing it in real and moved out his hand and moved away from her in a jerk which led to Sana waking up with a shock . They both looked away from each other .
Instantly Sid got up and looking in other direction told Sana " I am sorry I don't know how it happened . I didn't mean it to be like thT it's not right ! N u should hv woken me up if I was in deep sleep ! " Sana was heartbroken and was shocked to hear these words and was speechless in disbelief . Before she could say anything , Sid left uttering " Sorry I need to leave " and closed the door behind!
Sana was left shaken , broken and even bit ashamed of herself tears started rolling down her cheeks n endlessly . She couldn't help but her tears were unstoppable .
She just lied down on the bed facing ceiling and tears kept rolling out of her eyes after almost 3 hours her door bell rang and it was shehbaaz but she didn't open the door and told him from inside with great difficulty thT she is too tired sleeping and don't disturb please bhai it's her off today so she just wants to take rest .
There was heavy downpour that day in Mumbai Sana wanted to just go merge herself in sea or jump down from the building or hide herself somewhere never to be found !
Thinking all this she went to attached terrace to her hotel room and sat with her back leaning against a wall amid thunders and heavy rain and kept crying tears getting washed away in rain. She felt like nature is taking her in his embrace to calm her inside storm .
Sana's pov
How disgusted he was post getting close to her ! He must be feeling that I am intentionally getting close to him ? He taunts me about my character and that's why he never consider me more than friend , she was feeling ashamed and insulted n was numb like hell thinking all this
SIDS pov
Shit man ! How could I cross my limit with her ! What would she be thinking about me , I need to maintain distance at least till her show gets over , she must be feeling bad about the way I reacted but good now she will be upset with me or may be she herself keep away but will I be able to stay away from her !

Here sana fainted while still outside drenched in rain her whole body was shivering and trembling in cold out in open terrace !
Sid had few meetings lined up so he continued to distract himself morning till evening ! But he was whole day constantly checking his phone for a call or a msg from sana he was not able to
Accept that she didn't reach out but then thought his harsh words must have hurt her bad that's why . Now it's 7 pm in the evening , Sid not able to control his anxiety anymore called up shehbaaz to ask where is she so he told what he knew . Sid was shocked as she slept well and so being his logical self and intelligent person that he is , he enquired further did she eat anything in between to which shehbaaz told that he came to his friends place as was getting bored and planning to stay at his place only but said " kha hi liya hoga motto khaane k Bina kahan reh sakti hai " Sid didn't reveal his worry and just said " ok bye " and disconnected the call .
He immediately called up hotel reception to check whether she ordered any food today or not to which they replied no sir n as there was do not disturb sign( which shehbaaz placed as requested by Sana in the morning ) so we didn't ring the room bell too.
Sid hung up immediately grabbed his car keys and rushed to her hotel as fast as he could . He arranged master key from reception opens the room and searched for her but she was not there in her room nor washroom nor balcony then he switched on outside lights to witness the horrible state of her girl and ran and picked her up in his arms and rushed immediately to his car on the way shouting on hotel
Staff for their negligence and carelessness!
He almost had his heart out seeing her condition and tears were flowing from his eyes endlessly and was cursing and blaming himself thousand times every minute . He took her to the hospital and waited while doc was examining her . Doc looked at him sternly and asked what has happened that led to this state of hers to which Sid just looked down . Doctor asked nurse to get some injections ready and he asked Sid to wait outside . After an hour doc came outside and told him that she is out of danger now but still unconscious she got bad Nuemonia due to exposure to rain and cold for excessive hours . He wrote medicines and asked Sid to take extra care as it will take two three days for her to become completely ok .
After an hour she regained consciousness but still was lifeless and emotionless , Sid just turns other way and cried seeing her like this but wiped his tears and went close to her and said " chalein" to which she didn't respond , Sid tried to hold her as she was dizzy but she jerked his hand off and stretched herself to move along somehow reached car . Sid opened door of passenger seat for her but she opened the door of back seat and sat there.
Sid felt really bad and his heart cried seeing her like this , but he knew that it's all bcoz of him so he just drove silently to her hotel she got down before he could reach out and open door and moved towards lift just before she could enter she collapsed and was about to fall on the ground when Sid held her from waist and picked her up in his arms and moved to her room with the help of one of the hotel staff.
He made her sleep in her bed and covered her with the quilt as doc instructed to keep her as warm as possible . Her silence was killing him breaking him into million pieces . He couldn't tolerate the sight of her angel like this . He went out on terrace and lit a smoke but the glimpses of her in that state on terrace were flashing in his mind . He hated himself for what he has done and was regretting each word that he uttered in anger, thinking how could he be so mean n harsh towards no one else but her.
Suddenly he heard Sana crying holding her head in pain and reached out to her saying r u ok ? She didn't even look at him and talk to herself " where is my phone I need to call shehbaaz"
And starting looking for her phone and found it on side table but it was out of charge ! She then looked for charger n suddenly felt someone held her hand which she moved away immediately .
Seeing this n too ashamed of himself Sid told her to relax and tells her that he is not aware and on night out with his friends . I am here to take care of you . He picks up a plate full of khichdi and a bowl of curd and asks her " Sana doc said u need to eat well to get well soon"
Sana doesn't budge but Sid knows how to make her eat even when she is not talking .
" dekh tujhey meri kasam hain kha le " thinking that it's sids kasam she ate ! Sid gave her medicine she had that too and slept under the effect of medicines !
Sid sat on the ground at the cornor of bed and cried whole night and slept off there only with his hand on the bed.
He was equally numb n quite !!