The unspoken emotions

Emotional outburst

Sid was numb seeing his baby doll like this and cursing himself thousand times each second for doing this to her . He made her sit on bed and went down on knees asking her " itna naraaz ho I am sorry yaar seriously sorry I didn't know that u were so unwell and nobody informed me , I am your friend after all" and hell broke loose post she heard the word "friend" she jerked his hands off and uttered the impossible "kaun hai aap aur kya kaam hai aapko mujhse!" Sid was in total disbelief hearing this. She further continued " Maine paraaya kar diya Maine hi to appointment maangi thi manager se apne  so called " just friend se Milne ke liye ! Hai na!" "Maine paraaya kar diya hmmm Aisa hai aap jo koi bhi hai main nahi chahti aap mere tantrums Jhelein ya meri koi bhi fikar karein main theek hu ya fir paagal hu actually u know log to mujhey paagal psycho samajhtey hi hain aaj official ho jayega then it might become more easier for you to disown me completely even as friend" " pata hai aaj mera psychiatrist se appointment hai he will confirm that I am mad psycho woman then u can openly declare that u also don't know me that might make your life more peaceful" " listen u please leave I am ok and will be fine soon I haven't and will never bother u ever again and leaving for Punjab post this show I don't belong to this place"
Sid was super guilty shattered devastated broken all at once seeing his girl like this but he knows she also is going through the same emotion . Somehow he gathered himself and pulled her close making her weak his deep breaths were falling on her neck he spoke " I am sorry I am really really really sorry I know I am bad rude selfish everything u want to call me but please don't say that u don't know me because if u don't know me then nobody else does . I know it's my fault completely my fault I not even lied to you but to myself also acting up all strong but believe me every minute away from u killed me inside out !. Please believe me n don't u dare think of going away from my life " Sid had no
logic no control no filter to what he was saying right now as his life was slipping away from his hands" he again repeated " I am sorry jaan please forgive me one last time " Sana could feel his pain in his voice and Sid bowed his head on her shoulder now . Sana moved her hand up to caress his hair as she is the one with a big heart and tried to console him . Sid had tears in his eyes and hugged her tight she hugged back and told last time Haan ! She breaking the hug told him that she really needs to go see psychiatrist sid put his finger on her lips making her quiet told her "no need  you are absolutely fine ok as your friend is now here to take care of u" Sana was confused listening to him but was happy that at least he is around her now. Sid then told her to pack her bag for one day and he is taking her to his home . Sana was in dilemma as she was not sure whether she should get close to his family as he is unsure of his feelings yet , just then sids mom called her and told her to come n no excuses accepted . She obviously couldn't refuse as she is elder and she respects her a lot so she packed her clothes n necessary items for one day stay in a small bag and they both moved towards sids car. Sid opened the door of his car for sana then he himself settled in driving seat. On the way sana was quite seeing this Sid tried to distract her saying teasingly " Moti tu aur Moti ho gayi hai kuch jyada hi pamper ker rahein hain sab log tujhey msk house me aur jo ladkiyan bhi aayi hai wo paras se jyada tujhpe fida hain " listening to this sana felt content n happy inside as it's confirmed that he is watching the show but decided to not give in easy told " tujhey bada pata hai per tu to show dekh nahi raha tha na !" Sid got his tongue out being caught red handed ! So to cover up told " nahi nahi wo to Vikas was mentioning the same to him " Sana was on fire so she revert yeah " Jaise main tumhaari surf just friend hu hai na"Sid was tongue tied and speechless as usual in front of sana. But somewhere we're happy inside!