Loving the Bad

Chapter 45

I was reading some medical records when I noticed someone entering the office of Doctor Julo, the hospitals' Oncologist Doctor.

The sound of her clicking heels leave an echo in the quiet hallway of the hospital.

Her sophisticated walk made some of the patients and nurses to look at her direction.

Pumasok si Febbie sa office ni Doctor Julo habang nakasuot ng shades kahit na wala namang araw sa loob ng ospital.

Nagtataka ko siyang sinundan ng tingin.

Is her disease getting out of hand? Noong huli ko kasi siyang nakita ay mukhang okay na siya dahil nagagawa na niyang magtaray sa akin.

Maybe she's here for a checkup? She still needs to see a doctor to see If the cancer cells are coming back to her system

Ipinagkibit balikat ko nalang ito at sa halip ay bumalik sa aking ginagawang pagbabasa. Hindi ko na napansin ang pag-alis niya sa office ni Doctor Julo dahil kinailangan ng assistant ng isang doctor para sa mga pasyente.

Nag-inat ako ng braso dahil sa sobrang pagod. Madami kaming ginawa ngayon dahil marami-rami ang mga pasyente ngayon.

Humikab ako at pumikit ng mariin habang minamasahe ang sentido ko dahil sa sakit. I groaned.

Nagpalit na ako ng damit at naghandang umalis sa ospital.

It was a strange day for me because Kai didn't show up here at the hospital, not that I'm expecting him to. It was just for the whole week he's always coming here every lunch to give me food and to dine with me.

"You want to go out now?" Napatalon ako dahil sa gulat ng mayroong nagsalita sa likod ko. Hinawakan ko ang aking dibdib habang tinitignan si Israel na nakatayo sa aking harapan.

Alanganin akong tumingin sa kaniya. I don't know how to say this. I've been thinking about it a lot. How will I tell him that we should not date anymore?

Kai definitely did a good thing messing up my mind. The whole week that he spent pestering me prove that I haven't move on from him, still. Whenever he's around my heart goes wild. Parang hindi mapakali ang puso ko tuwing nakikita siya.

But I am not going to tell him any of this. Paano kung sabihin ko sa kaniyang mahal ko parin siya? Paano kung iwanan na naman niya ako? Paano ang nanay niya na tutol na tutol sa amin? Paano kung manipulahin na naman niya kami?

"I noticed that you're avoiding me, Amara." He smiled a little with a hint of bitterness.

Yes, for the whole week that Kai was bothering me here, at the hospital. I couldn't find it with myself to see Israel. Hindi ko mahanap ang sarili ko makipag date muli sa kaniya. It just felt so wrong. I know I should have told him ngunit humahanap lang ako ng tamang panahon para masabi ito sa kaniya.

My feelings are kind of mess up right now. Ngayon ko lang talaga nalaman na indenial lang talaga ako sa feelings ko kay Kai kaya lagi kong sinasabi na nakamove on na ako. I don't want to date someone knowing that I still haven't move on from my ex.

Ayoko namang natawag na paasa.

"Uhm... I- I don't k-know how to say this, I-Israel but," I look at him with an apologetic look. Kung kaya ko lang talaga na ipikita mula sa aking mata ang sibrang paghingi ko ng tawad ay ginawa ko na. "I think we s-should stop this dating." Kinagat ko ang ibaba ng labi ko.

Nakita kong ngumiwi siya dahil sa sinabi ko. Sino bang hindi matutuwa kung mayroong magsabi sa iyo niya'n?

"Why?" He asked. His tone is bitter and at the same time confused. "Is it because of that attorney? Mayroong usap-usapan sa ospital na ex mo daw siya. Is that true?"