Chasing A Trap (De Villa Series #1)

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“Don’t slap him, Vionice.”

That is also what I want, to still respect him because he is my Dad but I think this is too much! walang kasalanan si Mir sa lahat ng ito pero bakit sya dinadamay?

“Just one fuckin’ slap kuya, maybe when I did that he will fucking wake up from his fuckin’ dream! Ryder and I are not meant to be! He has fucking girlfriend! And I----I don’t love him anymore,” madiin kong sabi but napaiwas din ng tingin dahil ang huli kong sinabi ay isang malaking kasinunglingan.

Yes! I can shout at him and act like he doesn’t fucking make my heart beats so fast but I know very well that after our paths crossed again, my heart is still shouting for him but it was just only coated by my anger and hate for what he had done in the past, that’s why I can look at him and pretend that I don’t care anymore.

“Really, Vionice? How sure are you that you are not meant to each other?” tanong nya at napahinga naman ako ng malalim.

“He loves someone el---“Really? or that someone is you?” putol nya at inis ko na syang hinarap! 

“Kuya! It doesn’t matter anymore! You know he ruined me! No! they ruined me! I am living in the lie! I am fucking living in the lie!” Inis na sigaw ko at humigpit na ang kapit ko sa seatbelt.

Kahit dumugo ang labi ko dahil sa pagkakagat ko nito ay kinagat ko parin dahil sa nararamdamang inis.

“I also don’t love him anymore. I hate him! I hate Dad! I hate Aki! I hate them all! I hate them for trapping me!” May tumulong luha sa aking mga mata at agad ko iyong pinunasan.

“You hate Aki? You still hate her?” mahinang sabi nya at napayuko naman ako.

“I hate her for being kind,” hindi ko na napigilan ang luha ko at tuloy-tuloy na itong lumandas sa pisngi ko. “He fuckin’ love Ryder but she let me chase him because of Daddy. I hate her for thinking that if I fall in love to my fiancé which is his boyfriend, I will no longer feel the trap, I will become happy. I hate her for sacrificing. She never thinks about herself, all she thinks is I will be happy, I will fuckin’ happy and no longer feel sad.” Hindi ko na napigilang humagolgol dahil sa sinabi ko. I realized this after I know the truth.

“Vionice…”

“I hate her for always sacrificing, Kuya. When? When will be the time that she will choose to be happy? She always chooses to be broken just to see us happy, and I fuckin’ hate it,” Inis kong pinunasan ang luha ko at tumingin sa harapan.

“Aki needs you Vionice, she needs you,” hindi ko alam pero parang may pagmamaka-awa sa boses niya and then I realized, she wanted to talk to me in the airport but I left her there.

“She has Ryder, why the hell she needs me?” madiin na sabi ko at mas hinigpitan ang kapit sa seatbelt. “She has his man.” mahinang bulong ko at narinig ko naman ang pagbuntong hininga ni Kuya Yazid.

“He is n---“Drive Kuya. I want to see Dad.”

Ayoko ng pag-usapan ang ano mang may kinalaman kay Ryder at Aki, nasasaktan lang ako. I am accepting that they are still together and hearing something about the two still has an impact to my heart, its bleeding.

Kagaya nga ng sinabi ko ay nagdrive na si Kuya sa kotse niya at wala ni sino man sa amin ang umimik. Halos marinig mo na nga ang hininga naming dalawa. This is not what I expect, akala ko pupunta kami sa mamahaling restaurant at mabubutasan siya ng bulsa. 

Nangangati na ang bibig kong sigawan si Daddy for always ruining my plan but it’s not just only that, I want to shout at him for doing this to my friend.