𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐏 𝐌𝐄 :: 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣

十七

*trigger warning! this chapter includes mentions of self harm!*

august 08, 2017
8:22pm

"please tell me what happened." chan said softly as he sat on the couch next to minho. the younger looked terrible. his eyes were red and puffy and his body was trembling lightly.

chan didn't like seeing minho like this.

"i saw someone today." minho whispered and looked at his hands which had started shaking. "someone who made me go through a lot in the past."

chan saw minho's shaking hands and immediately closed them in his own bigger hands, trying to calm the younger down. minho though flinched after chan touched his hands and a whine left his lips.

chan looked up at minho's eyes and noticed the tears that started forming in them.

the blonde took his hands again but minho pulled away. chan looked at him confused.

"what is it? why don't you want me to hold your hands?" chan asked and minho gulped.

the younger kept staring at his hands without responding to the elder.

chan let out a sigh and lifted minho's chin up. when minho met the elder's eyes, a tear rolled down on his cheek and a whimper left his chapped lips.

"i'm sorry" minho cried and chan's expression softened at this. minho placed his hands on chan's bigger ones and took a shaky breath. "i just couldn't take it anymore"

chan looked at minho's hands and noticed something red rolling down from his wrist. his eyes widened as he lifted the boy's sleeves up. what he saw left him speechless and shocked.

minho's wrists were covered with blood and numerous scars, new and old ones, were all over his skin. chan wanted to cry. he felt so disappointed at himself for not realizing that minho had been hurting himself all this time. he felt useless because he couldn't even do the one thing he promised himself would be his first priority.

he couldn't protect minho.

"m-minho?" chan's voice cracked and his eyes got teary again. minho pulled his hands away and hid his wrists with his sleeves feeling a wave of shame and guilt swallowing him.

he wasn't planning on showing that to the elder but chan was too persistent and he'd eventually discover the truth one day anyways.

"why?" was all chan asked as he looked at minho's empty and red eyes desperately, looking for a sense of understanding or something.

chan had never understood why people hurt themselves like this. he never approved of this and he always thought that if someone ends up hurting themselves, they are just a coward who's afraid to face the harsh reality.

but now, seeing these scars on minho's skin, made chan even more worried about the younger. he knew minho was going through shit but he didn't know that he had gone that far.

minho let out a sigh and closed his eyes tightly. "it was my only way of escaping from this harsh world. it was the only way to make me feel something, make me feel alive. i had no other choice hyung."

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yup angst is back
but fluff chapters are coming soon uwu

also, stream "god's menu" guys!!!!