Back to normality?

Chapter 67

Apologies for slow updates. I've started a new standalone story of non-show based after a couple of ideas come to mind. Also looking like I've only got a couple more weeks left until I'm back to work so will try and update as much as possible.

After a quiet Sunday, it was soon Monday morning; having spend Sunday alone, Peter used the day to reassure Carla and settle her anxieties. With Matilda dressed and ready, Peter headed straight to the Bistro whilst Carla headed next to Michelle's flat; letting herself in, she found Michelle sat on the sofa, feeding Mia.

"Hey, are you sure you don't mind having her? I can ask Ken or Kate for a couple of hours" Carla asked, taking a seat.

"Course I don't mind"

"Okay well, I'm only doing the lunch shift so I should be back mid afternoon"

"Carla, honestly, we will be fine; are you nervous?" She asked, winding Mia and settling her in the moses basket before allowing Matilda to sit on her lap.

"Extremely"

"You'll be fine" she said, squeezing her hand. "You're just talking to him, aren't you? You haven't made a definite decision"

"I know"

"Whatever happens, it'll be the right decision for you"

"I should get going; see you later darling"

Kissing her daughter, she headed out and made her way to the Bistro; with the morning prep ready, they made a couple of drinks and and sat in the office with Scott, leaving Bethany in charge for a short while.

"So, seeing as this isn't official, I dont need to make notes or anything; how are you doing? Honestly?" Scott asked.

"I'm okay, for the most part; I, erm, I delivered Michelle's daughter in our bedroom"

"And how was that for you?"

"I was fine until Mia was born, she wasn't breathing; I had to rub her body for about ten seconds until she cried. Once the adrenaline wore off...I wasn't doing too good" she admitted.

"In what way?"

"It made me think about my labour and pregnancy, brought back some memories and feelings; not necessarily in a bad way but it got me thinking. I...would like to try for another baby; to experience a pregnancy again but hopefully one that's easier than last time"

"And you want my opinion?"

"If you don't mind? I'm in a whirlwind of thoughts at the minute"

"Okay, so, you've been stable for the last five months; no triggers or setbacks I'm assuming?"

"Nothing" she confirmed.

"That's good to hear; every patient is different. I can't sit here and tell you that you can have a trigger free pregnancy but equally, I can't say you wouldn't have it as bad as last time. You would still be monitored by your doctors and your gp could refer you back to me if you felt you needed the additional support..."

"I just don't want it to set me back; I finally feel like I'm truly back on track"

"That's understandable but it seems to me like you've thought this through a lot before coming to me; like I said, all you can do is give it a go and see what happens"

"Okay"

"You can email me anytime, unofficially"

"Thanks Scott"

"I have to run but I do have this, for Matilda" he said, pulling out the teddy bear from his rucksack.

"She'll love it, thank you" Carla smiled, taking it off him.

"Its nice seeing you in a better place, mentally; bye"

As Scott left, Peter turned to Carla and took her hand.

"Did that help?" He asked.

"A little; we should get back out there"

"Why dont you go home and spend some time with our daughter and Michelle? We'll be okay here" he suggested.

"I'm okay, let's get to work" she smiled, setting the bear on the desk before leaving the office.