Operation: Make My Ex Jealous (ON GOING)

Chapter 35

Ellie's P.O. V.

Hanggang ngayon ay nakatulala parin ako. Hindi ko alam kung kanino ako babaling. Kung sino ang titignan ko. Gulung gulo ako sa nangyayari.

Kung kay Ruzle ba na nandito't pinatahan akong umiyak o kay Grey ba na dahilan ng pag-iyak ko?

Nagtagumpay si Ruzle na itayo ang motor niya at agad na nilapitan ako at itinago sa likod niya atsaka hinarap si Grey na ngayon ay hingal na hingal parin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero hindi ko siya kayang tignan. Sobrang pagod ng itsura niya, pero is this the right time for me para siya ang isipin ko? Paano naman ako? Paano naman ang sarili ko na nasaktan?

"Phia—"

"Please." I stopped him.

"Phi—"

"Don't call me that!" I shouted. In the middle of the road not caring about the vehicles passing by. Anong pakialam ko sa mga sasakyan at sa mga taong makakarinig sa akin?

I feel betrayed...

Hindi ako nakatakas sa mga mata ni Grey na nagungusap sa akin na lapitan ko siya, yakapin at pakinggan. Gustung gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya na sobrang namiss ko siya at sabik na sabik din ako na yakapin siya, pero hindi ko kaya. Nagtatalo ang isip at puso ko. Masyadong masakit.

Nakita ko ang namumuong luha sa mga mata niya habang ako nama'y basang basa na ng luha ang pisngi ko. Akmang pupunasan ko ito nang yakapin ako ni Ruzle, dahilan para mapasubsob ako sa dibdib niya at awtomatikong mapunasan ang luha ko. Sigurado akong nakita ni Grey 'yon.

"Ellie..." he called me, but I can't answer him.

"Bro, why are you here?" It was Ruzle who asked. Alam kong alam niya ang nangyayari ngayon, because he can pick up things and happenings fast.

"Pwede ba, let me talk to her. Bitawan mo siya. Ellie, come on—" akmang aagawin niya ako mula sa mga bisig ni Ruzle when he pushed Grey's hands away from me na dahilan para mapaurong siya. It was that hard for him to react like that.

Ayokong magkasakitan sila, kaya I've gathered all my strength para makapagsalita at para huminga nang malalim. I fixed myself and my mind set. Ayokong may mangyaring masama sa kanilang dalawa nang dahil sa akin. That would hurt more than the pain I'm already experiencing right now.

"Grey..."

"Ellie, look, I was with Sophia." I gave him a continue-what you-are-saying look and I saw his eyes calmed a bit.

"I... I... can't leave her. I'm sor—-

"Don't f ucking say it, Grey. Don't." I begged with my eyes.

I don't want to hear a sorry from him. Not now, kasi feeling ko sobrang sakit? Kasi parang mamamatay ako kung magsosorry siya. Kung sa iba, sorry would mean something, sa akin, it would only make the pain worse.

Kasi feeling ko kapag nagsorry siya, para na rin siyang nag-sorry na ako si Phia, na nakita niya ulit ako, na nakilala niya ako at minahal niya ako. Na sorry kasi hanggang dito nalang, na hindi na kami pwede na wala na kaming pag-asang magkasama.

Kaya sorry? Mula sa kaniya?

Hindi ko kailangan ng sorry.

"If mag-so-sorry ka Grey, umalis ka nalang."

"Hindi—"

"Anong hindi?! Hindi mo kayang umalis na hindi nagso-sorry, kasi it would make you feel and look bad, and guilty? Tangina! Grey!" I shouted.

"You don't understand—"

"Make me understand everything then!"

"I'm trying to talk to you, but you're pushing me away!" He shouted back.

"Why don't you get the hint na kapag pinapalayo kita, gusto ko lang yakapin mo'ko?!" I cried.

"Why don't you understand na kapag pinapalayo mo'ko nadudurog ako? Ellie, it hurts to be pushed away, lalo na sayo, kasi ang tagal kong hinintay 'to. Nasasaktan ako, Ellie. Nasasaktan ako, lalo na kapag ako ang dahilan kung bakit ka nasasaktan and I don't even know what to do other than to say sorry..." there was a silence between us. Walang nagtangkang magsalita, it feels like we're both savoring the pain. The pain we've caused. The misunderstanding— everything.

"I-If you leave right now, I'll understand. I know I hurt you so much and it was so self centered of me to even dare to come here. I now understand why people don't keep me by their side. I'm blinded by my selflessly selfishness na kahit sarili ko, hindi ko na nabibigyan." Hindi ako makapag salita, I can't even sob, tears are just continuously falling on my cheeks.

I'm in pain, but like what he is feeling right now, I'm selfish too. Self centered and always trying to push away people who really care about me. I'm always doing this shit. Listening to my agony and hurting people who tries to help me get away with pain.

So dumb of me.

Narinig kong naglakad palayo sa tabi ko si Ruzle at sumakay sa kaniyang motor.

"Ellie, would you like to go?" He asked, calmly, not even forcing me to go with him.

"I—"

"It's for you to decide." He said.

"I'll..." tinignan ko si Grey. He isn't even looking at me. He's just... sad, "I'll stay..."

"Take care of her." Ruzle said bago niya binuhay ang makina ng motor niya at mabilis na humarurot paalis.

"I'm sorry I raised my voice—"

"I said don't say sorry."

"'Yun lang ang kaya kong gawin ngayon—"

"You didn't even try to hug me, how did you know na sorry lang ang kaya mong gawin?" I asked and I saw how his eyes sparkled. Walang sabi-sabi siyang lumapit sa akin at hinagkan ako.

Lahat ng nararamdaman kong sakit, unti unting natutunaw sa mainit niyang yakap. Now, this is the pain that you'd gladly enjoy.

The pain of if only...

If only I've heard him earlier. If only I lend him an ear and listened to everything he has to say, IF ONLY I didn't let myself be consumed with pain...

"If pinakinggan kita una pa lang, we could have better days like this..." I whispered.

"I wouldn't trade anything for this day." I looked at him, confused.

"Why?"

"Because everyday, every moment with you is precious, Sophia Ellie. I don't care what kind of day it'll be everyday as long as it is you I'm with. If it's good, then we'll be happy together and if it's bad, we'll get through. Always." Akala ko wala na akong maii-luha pa, pero heto ako't lumuluha na naman.

"Callum Grey, you really do know how to make my heart flutter, huh?" I chuckled.

"Oh my Sophia Ellie, you have no idea how nervous I am ealier. I thought sasama ka sa Ruzle na 'yon. Hmp!" Grey and his cute personality is my favorite— no, everything of him is my favorite.

"I won't leave you, because I just don't keep you by my side, I treasure you." I said while looking into his eyes.

"I love you."

"More than you know, Grey."

Our lips were about to meet, when a lightning strike that made me startled.

"Bwiset na kidlat." I heard him and I laughed so hard habang naglalakad pauwi sa bahay nila Elisse.

Without even realizing, nakalapat na ang labi ko sa labi niya. I initiated it. I kissed him. He deserves it.

"Ellie, about the call..."

"Tell me. I'll listen and understand." I smiled and hug him once again before entering the house with him.

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