100 more days of loving you | renhyuck

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dear donghyuck,

this is so hard.

this is harder than when i started.

hyuck.

my precious hyuck.

i cant be happy.

i cant write happily.

i just cant anymore.

i miss when we were two sunshines.

i miss when it was you and me against the world.

i miss being able to do gym class instead of just being sent to the nurse.

i miss getting yelled at by mrs kim.

i miss us being the only people that could make mr park mad enough to get detention.

i miss having the energy to argue with jaemin in korean literature.

hes starting to notice you know, that im not okay.

i mean youve noticed, but ive said it before.

you see right through me; basically you know what im feeling.

jaemin reads me like a book; he can figure out whats happening with me.

he cant know, but i dont know how to be who i was a week ago.

i dont know how to be who i was a month ago.

i am just in so much pain.

constantly.

to think that last wednesday i was scoring my first ever goal in soccer and now im here, sitting in my room crying because everything hurts.

im exhausted.

♡♡♡

i love you hyuck

your dying friend,
renjun