100 more days of loving you | renhyuck

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dear donghyuck,

the letters recently have been so short

also i cannot believe i actually knocked out mid letter yesterday.

i dont know what my mom gave me, but i was so loopy my god

see im writing daily letters right?

so i am therefore writing about my day, but im tired of constantly writing about how sick i am or how much i miss certain things.

i want you to enjoy these.

i want you to be able to smile at these.

but how can i write to you and not be honest

i want you to know how i was the last 100 days.

i want to say the honest words i couldnt tell you in person

but how do i do that without making these sad?

i just want you to know honestly that you mean so much to me.

i know you probably hate this word by now, but i actually miss you so much.

who knew a weekend would be too much time away from you?

i mean i did, been there done that, but its a different kind of longing when i know the reason we arent together.

although, it probably is a good thing we werent with each other this weekend because when i say i slept the entirety of saturday, i am not joking

i was beyond tired.

its not even like i was catching up on sleep either, i have been going to sleep early every night.

i hope with all this sleep i will be feeling better tomorrow.

i want to see you and the others, and smile and see all of you smile.

thankfully last week almost all of you were pretty normal, but i wanna be normal with you guys

na jaemin better be annoying again -_-

i miss you guys over the weekend

fuck i did it again

i need to stop missing things and live in the moment

okay well... maybe not too much in the moment

if i think about other things and not just live in the moment the pain doesnt seem as bad and i reaaalllyyy need that right now.

you see with the pain im in today, tomorrow should (please) not be bad (please)

i will have to get back to you on that though, im not there yet

ive never wanted a monday to come so badly in my life, i need to see all 5 of you

asap

as soon as possible

♡♡♡

i cant wait to see you tomorrow

i love you hyuck

your dying friend,
renjun