100 more days of loving you | renhyuck

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dear donghyuck,

you know having jaemin as my caretaker is one thing, but why does he have to drag jeno along

maybe they can distract me

why do i need distracting?

i think you hate me.

okay maybe hate is waaayyy too strong of a word, but you arent talking to me...

you know how yesterday i said i was too tired, i lied.

i mean im exhausted from everything, but i couldnt get myself to write.

you didnt smile at all yesterday and you gave me short dry answers instead of actually talking...

and today you avoided eye contact and literally just ghosted me, in person.

you are mad.

i pissed you off.

i...

im so so so so so incredibly sorry.

i never wanted this to happen.

hyuckie, i love you, but i cannot and will not tell you.

if i lose you these last 20 days i will hate myself so much, but that doesnt change the fact im not telling you.

great.

jaemin and jeno are gonna get here and i will be crying hysterically.

i cant even find words to say to you.

knowing that you are so upset at me that you literally wont even talk to me hurts.

im sorry...

i love you hyuck

your dying and very sorry friend,
renjun