Forever December[2011 Watty Awards]

Forever December: Chapter 14: I Can't Do It

*Forever December*

*Chapter 14: I Can't Do It*

"No, don't cry!" April cried, holding Rian to her chest, "She won't stop crying! What did I do?!" I knew my sister was trying with the twins, but she wasn't exactly good with them. I laughed.

"It's not you, she's just fussy." April let out a sigh. I was holding Rowan, who was latching on well now. It had been two weeks since I had my twins, and it was still new to me, being a mother and all.

Parker came and went as he pleased. He came about twice a week to see Rian and Rowan, which wasn't much. I had to stay in the hospital, but I was getting released soon - which I didn't want.

Since the twins were three months early, they had to stay for three more months, until their do-date. It broke my heart that I was going to be forced to leave them. We had such a wonderful bond.

Rian was the screamer. When she cried, she woke up Rowan and he would start crying. Fun, right? Not really.

The nurse would come in every day and show me how to do things like changing a diaper, and helping them latch on to their food source. They didn't have much trouble with that one. When they were hungry, they were hungry indeed.

"I can't take this, I'm going to get something to eat!" April squealed, pushing Rian into my arms.

"Be careful, April! And all right, see you later." I sighed in content as my baby girl stopped crying. I giggled, pressing my lips to her forehead. She didn't like other people, I guessed, including her father. I looked at the door for a moment, somehow hoping he'd come in. But that wasn't going to happen.

I placed Rowan in his basket, as he was asleep. I began to rock Rian, thinking about where Parker was....

*Parker's P.O.V.*

I groaned as Brandie's lips made their way down my chest. I pushed her back onto my bed and kissed her roughly, pinning her down. She let out a giggle, and I pulled back, confusion striking. "What's so funny?" I grunted, tilting my head to the side.

"Nothing, don't stop." I sighed and rolled to the side, moving my fingers through my hair roughly. Brandie pursed her lips and climbed on top of me, straddling my waist. I looked up at her and smirked. "What's wrong, Parks?"

"Nothing's wrong," I reached up and pulled her face down to mine, frenching her with all my might. I had to forget. Forget about December, and the twins that she'd just had. I was afraid. What was I going to do? I didn't have money, or a job, or any way to pay for these babies. It was no use even being around them. I couldn't take care of them, and I wouldn't.

**

I opened my eyes, jumping as I heard a loud ring. I looked to the side and reached over, tugging it out of my pants pocket. I flipped it open and pushed it to my ear. "Hello?"

"Where the hell are you? I'm getting discharged and you're not here to see your kids? What are you doing, Parker?!" I took a deep breath and looked to my left, where lay Brandie. I closed my eyes before replying.

"I can't do it, Dee. I don't want them."

"W...what? You d...don't want them? Why don't you want them? Parker? Where are you? You can't do this to me! You can't!" December screamed. I could hear the hurt, and pain lagging in her voice. Sobs sounded through the phone and I squeezed my eyes shut even harder.

"I'm sorry, December. I can't do this. I don't want to be a father. I'm done," with that, I hung up.

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I know this chapter is short. The next one won't be. D: I hope you all are still following Dee on her journey to motherhood. :) She'd love for you to be there with her.

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