Chapter 19
Hindi ako makagalaw sa kinauupuan ko nang bigla niyang sabihin sa akin yun. No one speak as silence took inside his car. Hirap akong makagalawa at makapagsalita. Hindi ako makapaniwalang tinitignan siya.
"What did you say?" my voice cracked as I shifted my weight.
He was looking intently at me and I can't even find my own voice.
"I am courting you. Whether you like it or not, I am courting you Eunice Grace." He said as he waits for me to speak.
"What... w-why?" I stuttered.
"I am doing all these things because I am courting you. Simple lang naman ang sagot kung bakit kita nililigawan gaya ng ibang manliligaw mo. Dahil gusto kita, gustong-gusto." He said and moistened his lips.
"I can't just sit here and watch other guys take their moves on you. Bago pa may maka-una, uunahin ko na sila. Mahirap na baka i-reject mo rin ako." He continued.
I bit my lower lip and looked down. I can't see him at this moment. I can't even know what I am feeling right now. Matutuwa ba ako o magagalit, sari-saring emosyon ang nangigibaw sa aking katawan.
"I don't know what to say..." I whispered softly but enough for him to hear it.
"Then don't say anything. Kaya kong maghintay hanggang sa handa ka ng sagutin ako." He confidently said.
I can't sleep that night, thinking Kiel and all those things he said to me. Para akong mababaliw sa dami ng aking iniisip and my mind is at mess right now.
Ganun ba siya ka-confident na sasagutin ko siya? I can't even reject him like I did to Jace! This isn't right, why didn't I say something? Why did I let him and most of all bakit hindi ko siya tinanggihan man lang. Does this mean that I am letting him court me and that I am giving him a chance. This is weird actually.
Kuya Ethan doesn't have to know. Hindi puwedeng malaman ni Kuya ito lalo pa't magkaibigan sila. Can I tell Trisha about this? No, not yet. Hahanap muna ako ng tiyempo kung saan maayos at klaro ang lahata. Right now seems to be dull and unclear for me. Hindi ko alam kung saan, sa aking nararamdaman siguro. Hindi pa ako ganun kasigurado kay Kiel. Maybe I am just finding the right time, but not now.
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"How's school hija?" my mom asked when we're eating dinner. Nandito rin si Kuya Ethan at dahil bihira na lang siyang umuuwi rito because he has his own condo, medyo naging masaya ang pakiramdam ko at magkasama kami ngayon tatlo sa hapag.
"Okay lang naman po. Malapit na exams." I said as I chew my food.
"That's good. You better study and graduate. I can't wait to see you working na." she enthusiastically said.
"Ma, let Eunice enjoy her college days. Don't pressure her too much." Sabi naman ni Kuya Ethan na kaharap ko.
I didn't say anything.
"Hindi naman sa ganon, excited lang ako para kay Eunice dahil malapit na rin siya grumaduate. I'm sure she'll love to work and run the company as well." She said and smiled at me.
I just smiled back at her and continue eating my food.
"Hayaan nating magdeicide si Eunice para sa sarili niya Mama." Kuya Ethan said as he didn't look at me or mom but busy with his food.
"You need to concentrate on your studies and as much as possible Eunice, no distractions." He said. This time he looked at me. Napalunok ako sa sinabi niya at saka uminon ng tubig.
