𝗛𝗜𝗦 𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗟 // 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘬𝘪. 𝘬 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴

When You Feel Insecure

(Your Name) had been in her bathroom, looking at herself in the mirror for what felt like hours. Her fingers gently grazed against her cheek as she stared intently at her reflection.

"And dressing up ACTUALLY makes you look presentable for once."

The woman flinched as her lover's words from two nights ago played in her mind like a broken record. Now don't get me wrong, (Your Name) never thought she was ugly. No way in hell did she ever think that about herself. Did she think she was drop dead gorgeous? No, but others did. Did she think she was a model? Absolutely not, but others did. But did she think she was ugly? Not in the slightest. She new damn well she was far from it, and the events from the other night proved it.

If that's the case, why were these words taking such a toll on her?

A small pout of confusion made its way on to her lips as her eyebrows furrowed, and she thought about the unpleasant emotion she felt. The (hair color) haired woman had her fair share of relationships in the past, but none of them came close to the love she felt for Kai. Honestly, they never lasted long either, maybe two months tops. That's only because her partners wanted her for her looks and not for her, so she always ended up breaking it off. So, the amber eyed male really has her heart captured, and vise versa, and maybe that's why his words had such an impact on her.

(Your Name) looked down at what she was wearing and tilted her head as she tugged slightly on her shirt. Was it her clothes he didn't like? Well, that wouldn't make sense because Kai bought them for her, so that idea was ruled out. Her hygiene maybe? Absolute not. He DEFINITELY would've said something about that, so that can't be it either. She brought her fingers back up to her face as a deep frown appeared on her lips. Did Kai really think her normal self doesn't looked "presentable?"

(Your Name)'s POV

I felt hot tears start to build up in my eyes as these thoughts ran through my mind like a stampede.

'Does Kai really think that about me?'

I know I angered him a little that night, but did he actually mean it? My mom always people tend to say what they truly mean in two situations: when their drunk or when their angry. And in that moment, Kai was angry at me. I'm usually not one to take things to heart, but. . . what he said really hurt.

I wiped the tears from my eyes and let out an shaky sigh before looking at myself in the mirror again.

"Pull yourself together, (Your Name). I'm sure he meant no real harm by it. . .right?"

'God, I've never felt so insecure in my life.'

I shook my head in an attempt to get the thoughts out before making my way out of my room and let out a sigh.

'Oh well. . .regardless, I still have work to do.'

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No One's POV

Kai knew something was off from the moment he woke up, and (Your Name) wasn't there. On the occasions where they didn't sleep together-like this occasion-his (eye color) eyed lover would always make it a point to visit him before they start. She'd wake up, brush her teeth, get dressed, and then go to Kai's room and sit on his bathroom counter as he did his similar morning routine.

But this morning it was him- and him alone-in his room, and he didn't like it.

He waited for a few minutes to see if his lover had just woken up a little later than usual, but much to his dismay, she just never showed up. He just shrugged it off, and boiled it down to her sleeping in late. Regardless of that, he still had work to do and experiments run, so he just did his normal routine and went on about his day.