𝗛𝗜𝗦 𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗟 // 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘬𝘪. 𝘬 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴

Downward Spiral

Hey Heyy! So I still have a few more requests to write, but they'll come into the story later!

I know I JUST update a couple of days ago, but I couldn't wait to get this one out!

🚨WARNING(S)🚨 Angst; literally nothing happy about this chapter; relationships falling apart

Happy reading! Muah! (✿◕3◕)~❤

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You weren't sure how much more of this you could take.

The countless nights spent trying desperately to calm Eri made your heart shatter into mere splinters. Many tears were spilled as she cried continuously, "please don't go, " "he'll hurt you too, (Your Name)", " I'm scared."

You could feel yourself crumbling under the weight of the guilt as the days go by. Were you the one physically and emotionally causing her pain? No, of course not. You wouldn't hurt a single hair on the girl's head. You'd take a bullet for the child without hesitation, and it was agonizing to witness her here. And every night when she was finally able to sleep, you would kiss her forehead and mumble the most sincere "I'm sorry."

But still.

The only effort you made to help her was through emotional support. If anything, you felt like your presence made it worse. The primary reason you were brought here was to decrease the number of attempted escapes Eri made. You were here to be someone she trusted, to be someone she would never want to leave behind. You were here to make her stay.

And make her stay, you did.

And you loathed yourself for it.

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"What the hell am I even doing..."

Not a single piece of work was completed. Your mind was clouded with the thoughts of Eri. Everything seemed to get worse as of late, and you felt so helpless and conflicted.

Eri doesn't deserve this, and you know it. The poor girl is only six years old. She shouldn't be here! She's supposed to be outside playing mud puddles, scraping her knees, and letting her imagination run wild with other kids her age. She's supposed to be having dreams for the future that sound mind-boggling, like marrying Santa Clause or eating cake for every meal for the rest of her life.

But instead, she's stuck here.

She's stuck being a lab rat for hours on end. She's stuck with a heartless man telling her that she's nothing but a curse, and every bad thing that's happened is her fault. Her life was ripped away before it even started.

You've been punching yourself in the stomach for the amount of pain you've caused to that poor girl. You're the only reason she stays in this hellhole. She stopped trying to leave because you're still here, stopped fighting for her freedom because you're still here. This reoccurring thought always made you ask yourself:

"Why the hell am I still here?"

Of course, you know the answer: Kai is why you're here. Kurono, Tengai, Rappa, Setsuno. All of them have their special place in your heart. Kai, the man you hold so dearly to you, seemed to have a place in your heart that no one has ever experienced.

Even so, he's beginning to appear like he's not worth staying here.

If Eri's state wasn't bad enough, your relationship with Kai was taking a turn for the worse.