Roller-coaster ride : c.h.

Telephone

Calum and I had sex last night, except it felt distant. He was distant. This morning I woke up per usual and Calum was heading out the door to do some band related things. I took it upon myself to clean up the apartment a little and now it was 8:00 and Calum was still out. I reached for some leftovers and tuned into E! News to my surprise where Kayliegh was being interviewed. "So Kayliegh, you haven't been in anything recently, what brings you to E! ?" Guiliana asked.

"I have a lot to say about the Pop-culture's favorite couple."

"By that do you mean Calum and Alana?"

"Yes, I have the whole story."

"Well, go on, I'm sure we're all interested in how these two met."

"Calum and Alana grew up with each other, always kept it friendly, until one night Calum and Alana slept with each other, and he promised to keep it a secret, but Calum being the pig that he is told a group of his friends soon the whole school found out. So Alana's famous novels are based off of that for all of you fans out there. Then once Calum and Alana were both in L.A. and Alana was dating Keaton, Calum wanted to make ammends, here's where I come in. See Calum and I met at a bar and I promised him that if he helped me out, I would help him out, so he did and I sent him to Wes from Emblem 3's birthday party where he saw Alana for the first time in years, unfortuantely his plan didn't work becuase Alana was dating Keaton. But he didn't stop there, he 'helped' me out again and I invited my little 'friend' Alana to Killers a club in L.A where paparazzi spotted them, that's when Calum and I went to Adam and Crystal with the idea of putting the two in a house forcing them to date. But little did the public know is that up until a couple of weeks ago the two of them weren't even in love. But that's all I can say without being grotesque, I've already censored myself."

"Well, thank you Kayliegh Quinn." She smiled evily before it cut to commerical. I couldn't move. I was paralyzed. How could he do this to me? My whole life was now publicly televised, the reason behind my novels, my love life, my virginity. Calum must've seen the segment on E! because he attempted to call me but I didn't answer. Zoe being the best friend that she is came over and comforted me. She did most of the packing due to my state.

-

"How are you feeling?" Zoe asked handing me a cup of tea.

"I woke up this morning hoping all of this was a dream, that this wasn't actually happening, but now I have to go back to that apartment today. I don't even care about my contract or anything.

"As crazy as this sounds, you should probably talk to Calum. We both know how Kayliegh can be."

So I took Zoe's advice and braced myself for the storm that was about to come. Twisting the knob and revealing my view, he was there. "Alana.." He said running over to me with open arms.

"Stop, don't do this. I can't do this. I need to hear it from you, is it true? All of it, the part about you sleeping with her, the parts about you doing all of this sneaky and threatening things just so I would forgive you. You slept with Kayliegh. You asked her for advice on how to get me turned on, was this all apart of your plan, you just wanted to get in my pants again, wanted to see me hurt. Last night you saw Kayliegh and she warned you. You could've told me last night instead of pretending I wasn't going to find out and letting me have sex with you. Now, my sex and love life is being televised."

"Alana..."

"Just stop talking!" I shouted. "I thought you loved me Calum."

"I do. What I did shouldn't matter, we're in love."

"No, stop saying that. You don't hurt the people you love. This feels just like last time."

"It's not the same, you're different, I'm different."

"Really, then how come I'm the one who's constantly being humiliated. I didn't come here to argue with you, I'm just getting the rest of my things. I'm moving in with Zoe and selling my old appartment."

"Alana, please talk to me."

"What more is there to talk about? What do you want me to say? You want me to say that I love you and everything's gonna be okay? I'm sorry, but unlike you, I don't say things I don't mean." The words left my mouth and it was almost as if I had shot Calum right in the gut.

'What about the contract?"

"Well, fuck it. I lost everything else, why not lose my contract too. No one is going to want to hire me. My movie might be dropped, my third book is probably not gonna sell-"

"And wouldn't that be a pitty, people wouldn't get to read about me as another character. Well here's the idea for your fourth book."

"I don't get it. I'm the one who should be hurt and angry and acting like an ass, but you seem to have that covered."

"I don't know what you want me to do Alana!"

"I want you to stop! I just want you to stop! I can't take this anymore. You made me look like a fool once, the second time you truly made me look like and idiot. I don't like that, especially over national television. Enjoy youself Calum, I hope your ego and Kayliegh are very happy together." And with that said I exited, shutting the door on not only my apartment, but my relationship with Calum.

-

Zoe comforted me and played with my hair while I sat there and cried over a boy who didn't love me, a boy who never loved me, and a boy who is never going to love me. This was pain. I had broken bones and gotten teeth pulled, but nothing had compared to the feeling of betrayal by someone who I thought loved me, someone who I made myself vulnerable to. I was mostly upset with Calum, but I was also upset with myself for letting him hurt me again, letting him humiliate me. He never loved me, you don't hurt the ones you loved. He was such a good liar, between the trips, the dates, the gestures, the laughs, the sex, it was all over.

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